I love my family. I've said it many times, but I feel like it's never enough. I'm the independent one of the family, but it's times like these [getting sick and being unable to do a damn thing] that make me remember just how much I love them.
Since I was a baby, I've been a daddy's girl. I can talk to my dad about anything at all and my mom was usually left in the dark for some things. She has noticed it and put up with it all my life. We fought a lot when I was younger, and she still did something miraculous. She let me leave home at the age of 14 to go live at my high school. Any mother that can let a child leave has to be brave and have faith that her child is strong enough to do whatever it is they want to do. And my mom did. She put up with a lot from me, and she still does, I'm sure. Although I have tried to be a better daughter since college started...she deserves it.
Anyways, the one area of parenting that my mom will always trump my dad on is: sickness. It really is that maternal instinct I think, because when I feel sick, the only person I want by my side is my mommy. As soon as I was feeling low, I called her to tell her that I felt terrible. She came over right after work was done and stayed with me to see if there was anything I needed. She checked up on me, made sure I made a doctor's appointment, and tonight she was amazing. Not only did she come over and clean up my room for me [including folding laundry and finding a place for everything that was out of place] but she saw that I didn't want her to leave so she stayed with me and watched a movie. She even brushed and braided my half damp from a bath, half sweaty hair. My mom knows exactly what to do to make me feel better. And I don't tell her enough how much I love her.
I love my mom. She is probably the most amazing woman I will ever be lucky enough to know. I'm so proud to call her my mother because I know she's there for me no matter what. And guess what everyone? I'm going to sleep with a 98.8 degree temperature! Yay!!! I think it was the mommy's touch that made it go down. Let's just hope it stays down.
I would also like to give a special thanks to my Nana today. She brought me a slushie, some more drinks, and took my laundry to her house to do for me. I'm feeling spoiled and am more grateful than they'll ever know. It's times like these that I am lucky enough to have family in town when I'm in college.
[Also, the movie my mom and I watched tonight was 'The King's Speech'. Neither of us had seen it before, and we both ADORED it. British history has always been a small fascination of mine...]
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
a legit post for the last day of BEDA - Day 31
Well lucky me, I have enough energy to actually write up a real blog post for you guys!
Sorry I've been so MIA lately, but you guys can't imagine how terrible I've felt. I haven't eaten more than 8 french fries over the past 2 days, and I only ate those because they were easy enough to swallow. So let's recap on my past few days:
- We've already been over the whole 'not being able to eat' thing. It hurts soooo much to swallow anything so my body just doesn't hate me for not eating. I've tried to drink cold drinks but it still sucks. I have to be cautious.
- I have had ZERO energy to do anything. I literally have come home for the past two days to take a nap instead of doing my normal SM afternoon activities. I haven't even gone to rehearsal for the past two nights. Basically I feel like a huge failure as a stage manager. It really REALLY sucks.
- I finally went to the doctor yesterday and he said that I tested negative for strep throat which is great, except for the fact that he doesn't know what I have. I'm not allowed to go to school today, but since this is the first time I've been without a fever and have a small amount of energy, I might try to sneak in to rehearsal and run it from the back of the house. We'll see how the day goes and how much Daydrie needs me.
- Yes, you heard right. I woke up this morning without a fever. My back is still achy and I woke up drenched in sweat, but I finally have a small amount of energy. I'm going to try to catch up on SM work, homework, and take as many naps as my body will let me. Oh, and I will and have been drinking lots of fluids. It's when I'm sick that I'm so glad to be around family here. They really have taken care of me and I feel pretty loved. My mom has simply spoiled me [the only time I rely on her the most is when I'm sick and she loves it] my brother has driven me places because I haven't had the strength to walk, my sister brought her puppy over last night, brought me medicine, and watched a movie with me to make me feel better, my grandparents have sent me care packages, and my daddy has sent me his love. I think this year I'm really starting to enjoy Auburn and all that it has for me. Shocker, right? Or maybe it's just me being really grateful for all the sick support I've gotten. But it's thoroughly refreshing to know that I have so many people around to help if I need them.
Anyways, I'm going to try to start catching up on the mounds of homework I have waiting for me. Wish me luck?
Current song - Shaytards theme song
Current cup of water - 1
Sorry I've been so MIA lately, but you guys can't imagine how terrible I've felt. I haven't eaten more than 8 french fries over the past 2 days, and I only ate those because they were easy enough to swallow. So let's recap on my past few days:
- We've already been over the whole 'not being able to eat' thing. It hurts soooo much to swallow anything so my body just doesn't hate me for not eating. I've tried to drink cold drinks but it still sucks. I have to be cautious.
- I have had ZERO energy to do anything. I literally have come home for the past two days to take a nap instead of doing my normal SM afternoon activities. I haven't even gone to rehearsal for the past two nights. Basically I feel like a huge failure as a stage manager. It really REALLY sucks.
- I finally went to the doctor yesterday and he said that I tested negative for strep throat which is great, except for the fact that he doesn't know what I have. I'm not allowed to go to school today, but since this is the first time I've been without a fever and have a small amount of energy, I might try to sneak in to rehearsal and run it from the back of the house. We'll see how the day goes and how much Daydrie needs me.
- Yes, you heard right. I woke up this morning without a fever. My back is still achy and I woke up drenched in sweat, but I finally have a small amount of energy. I'm going to try to catch up on SM work, homework, and take as many naps as my body will let me. Oh, and I will and have been drinking lots of fluids. It's when I'm sick that I'm so glad to be around family here. They really have taken care of me and I feel pretty loved. My mom has simply spoiled me [the only time I rely on her the most is when I'm sick and she loves it] my brother has driven me places because I haven't had the strength to walk, my sister brought her puppy over last night, brought me medicine, and watched a movie with me to make me feel better, my grandparents have sent me care packages, and my daddy has sent me his love. I think this year I'm really starting to enjoy Auburn and all that it has for me. Shocker, right? Or maybe it's just me being really grateful for all the sick support I've gotten. But it's thoroughly refreshing to know that I have so many people around to help if I need them.
Anyways, I'm going to try to start catching up on the mounds of homework I have waiting for me. Wish me luck?
Current song - Shaytards theme song
Current cup of water - 1
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
they don't know what's wrong with me - BEDA Day 30
They took a throat test but until then I have no idea what's wrong with me and I'm supposed to stay home. This is going to suck.
Longer blog once I'm feeling better, promise.
Current song - It Takes Two - Rob Base and DJ Easy Rock
Longer blog once I'm feeling better, promise.
Current song - It Takes Two - Rob Base and DJ Easy Rock
Monday, August 29, 2011
soooo sick - BEDA Day 29
I almost said 'eff it. I'm sick' But I didn't. Alas, I am way too tired and sickly to blog. I have a 101+ degree fever, Farenheit, and I'm freezing. Wish me luck!
Current song - I have no idea.
Current song - I have no idea.
achy feelings - BEDA Day 29
BEDA is almost over. I think I might have some withdrawals starting already. This month has already been amazing with my blogging and I almost always felt much better after writing. So since I have thoughts to share, here I go!
I feel achy. I need to make a doctor's appointment. I don't have a fever [I've checked twice] but my skin is hot and my body is cold. I don't like this feeling. My back is never comfortable which sucks because I really need to be attentive. Basically, I just feel really lazy. I want to sleep, but I feel like I don't have the time to do that. Also, I was asked about interest in yet another job about being a kind of regular babysitter for a few kids that I adore. I hope she asks me to work, and if not I told her to call on me for any babysitting! I got to visit with her and her kids once at Disney World and they are amazing, so I'd love to sit for them any time!
With this sickness is coming more stress because I have so much to do! I also have to remember to start scheduling fittings, eff. This is turning in to a rant. Ahh!
Anyways, I decided to write this now when I'm alive. I'm seriously considering a nap this afternoon. We'll see.
Current song - Adele Medley - Goot and the boys
Current cup of water - 3
I feel achy. I need to make a doctor's appointment. I don't have a fever [I've checked twice] but my skin is hot and my body is cold. I don't like this feeling. My back is never comfortable which sucks because I really need to be attentive. Basically, I just feel really lazy. I want to sleep, but I feel like I don't have the time to do that. Also, I was asked about interest in yet another job about being a kind of regular babysitter for a few kids that I adore. I hope she asks me to work, and if not I told her to call on me for any babysitting! I got to visit with her and her kids once at Disney World and they are amazing, so I'd love to sit for them any time!
With this sickness is coming more stress because I have so much to do! I also have to remember to start scheduling fittings, eff. This is turning in to a rant. Ahh!
Anyways, I decided to write this now when I'm alive. I'm seriously considering a nap this afternoon. We'll see.
Current song - Adele Medley - Goot and the boys
Current cup of water - 3
Sunday, August 28, 2011
i feel like shit - BEDA Day 28
I'm not allowed to be sick. My body has to survive until October 3rd at the earliest! Doesn't my body understand?! This is not okay! I'm achy, my throat hurts, and I just don't feel like moving. Even typing this blog post takes too much effort and I don't feel like finishing my work! But I must, mustn't I?
I even have to go to church group, although I'm really reconsidering it, because if I don't then that could be really bad for me living here at the church. I'm deeply thinking that it might not be a good idea. I could fall asleep now and not wake til morning...easily. But I have so much work to do. And the end is in sight! Let's just say I'll finish it now and then sleep my worries away! Ha, we'll see how that goes.
Sorry that these posts have been kinda shitty, but thus is my life right now and I don't want to bug people more than I have to. For now, I'm going to somehow make tea without a kettle to see if that helps my voice.
Current song - Firework - Katy Perry
Current cup of water - 5
I even have to go to church group, although I'm really reconsidering it, because if I don't then that could be really bad for me living here at the church. I'm deeply thinking that it might not be a good idea. I could fall asleep now and not wake til morning...easily. But I have so much work to do. And the end is in sight! Let's just say I'll finish it now and then sleep my worries away! Ha, we'll see how that goes.
Sorry that these posts have been kinda shitty, but thus is my life right now and I don't want to bug people more than I have to. For now, I'm going to somehow make tea without a kettle to see if that helps my voice.
Current song - Firework - Katy Perry
Current cup of water - 5
Again, BEDA, really? Day 27
I guess I just didn't post something correctly, but here's my post.
Today I got a huge sigh of relief when I was told that my grandparents' flight to NYC was cancelled. They were supposed to go on a cruise, but with Hurricane Irene coming, the only way that they could get refunded for the trip was if their flight was cancelled. They even got all the way to Atlanta yesterday morning and finally found out it was cancelled. I'm very relieved to hear that they are safe, but I keep thinking about all my friends on the east coast and I'm just as worried about them.
Again, my 'free Saturday' turned in to a ton of activities and visiting that didn't really help me get any work done. I visited my house, took Madeleine on a driving lesson, visited her house, etc etc. I didn't get back home to do homework until 3:30pm and then I had to go out to Hobby Lobby and get some more Design Aesthetics supplies before it closed because today was my last day to do so. *sigh* I just want to sleep in, not have to do anything, and breathe. That's not going to happen anytime soon.
Current song - The Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga
Current cup of water - 5
Today I got a huge sigh of relief when I was told that my grandparents' flight to NYC was cancelled. They were supposed to go on a cruise, but with Hurricane Irene coming, the only way that they could get refunded for the trip was if their flight was cancelled. They even got all the way to Atlanta yesterday morning and finally found out it was cancelled. I'm very relieved to hear that they are safe, but I keep thinking about all my friends on the east coast and I'm just as worried about them.
Again, my 'free Saturday' turned in to a ton of activities and visiting that didn't really help me get any work done. I visited my house, took Madeleine on a driving lesson, visited her house, etc etc. I didn't get back home to do homework until 3:30pm and then I had to go out to Hobby Lobby and get some more Design Aesthetics supplies before it closed because today was my last day to do so. *sigh* I just want to sleep in, not have to do anything, and breathe. That's not going to happen anytime soon.
Current song - The Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga
Current cup of water - 5
Friday, August 26, 2011
a deep thought? - BEDA Day 26
I had a really great discussion with Madeleine as I was making my video this evening. [WARNING: If you have NOT seen my follwthebutterflies video this week and wish to see it before I have a tiny spoiler, go now!!]
When I was making my video and comparing why I thought Belle was better than Mulan, she had some very opposing views with me and it made me wonder what side other people would take. I said that Belle was much more brave than Mulan because she had no idea what was in store for her while Mulan knew what the consequences could, and probably would, be. Mulan knew exactly what she was walking in to while Belle was risking everything for her father without even knowing what could happen to her.
You see, Madeleine thought that by knowing exactly what was in store for her, it was actually more scary than not knowing. Because Madeleine would start freaking out about it all and over-analyzing things. Whereas I would be more scared of not knowing because having a choice between two terrible things, one known and one unknown, are scary. But I'd probably choose what's known.
I have a few examples:
-First off, if I had the choice between facing a creature in the sea [like an anglerfish from Finding Nemo] or facing whatever is out in space, I'd choose the anglerfish. That way I could decide how to defend myself and get away safely. And I guess Madeleine might choose the unknown because she knows so much about the anglerfish, and there are so many choices of how to go about things, that it scares her even more to try to face it.
-Another example that she and I discussed. Maybe Madeleine would be more scared of facing Voldemort and the Death Eaters because she knows how terrible they are, while I would be more scared of the moment that they started casting spells on Hogwarts' protective bubble, because I'm not sure if it would work or not.
What do you guys think? Are you scared of the known or the unknown? Why? This is something that I've been thinking about for a while and I'd like to hear some opinions.
Current song - Breathe Again - Sara Bareilles
Current cup of water - 8
When I was making my video and comparing why I thought Belle was better than Mulan, she had some very opposing views with me and it made me wonder what side other people would take. I said that Belle was much more brave than Mulan because she had no idea what was in store for her while Mulan knew what the consequences could, and probably would, be. Mulan knew exactly what she was walking in to while Belle was risking everything for her father without even knowing what could happen to her.
You see, Madeleine thought that by knowing exactly what was in store for her, it was actually more scary than not knowing. Because Madeleine would start freaking out about it all and over-analyzing things. Whereas I would be more scared of not knowing because having a choice between two terrible things, one known and one unknown, are scary. But I'd probably choose what's known.
I have a few examples:
-First off, if I had the choice between facing a creature in the sea [like an anglerfish from Finding Nemo] or facing whatever is out in space, I'd choose the anglerfish. That way I could decide how to defend myself and get away safely. And I guess Madeleine might choose the unknown because she knows so much about the anglerfish, and there are so many choices of how to go about things, that it scares her even more to try to face it.
-Another example that she and I discussed. Maybe Madeleine would be more scared of facing Voldemort and the Death Eaters because she knows how terrible they are, while I would be more scared of the moment that they started casting spells on Hogwarts' protective bubble, because I'm not sure if it would work or not.
What do you guys think? Are you scared of the known or the unknown? Why? This is something that I've been thinking about for a while and I'd like to hear some opinions.
Current song - Breathe Again - Sara Bareilles
Current cup of water - 8
Thursday, August 25, 2011
i legit almost forgot again - BEDA Day 25
Guys, if I had lost THIS LATE IN THE GAME, I would have been pissed. I was watching me some ShayTards tonight in bed and yeah...just realized I needed to type something.
I am literally going delirious. You're all lucky that there's not something called Blog Every Day in September because all you'd be getting is me saying 'omg my life is over i don't have any sleep this is ridiculous holy crap'....yup. That's what you'd get!
So today was crazy, and so crazy in fact that I'm just going to bed. Sorry for the short post, but I'm tired...
Current song - Adele Medley - Alex Goot with two other awesome guys
Current cup of water - 6
I am literally going delirious. You're all lucky that there's not something called Blog Every Day in September because all you'd be getting is me saying 'omg my life is over i don't have any sleep this is ridiculous holy crap'....yup. That's what you'd get!
So today was crazy, and so crazy in fact that I'm just going to bed. Sorry for the short post, but I'm tired...
Current song - Adele Medley - Alex Goot with two other awesome guys
Current cup of water - 6
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
earlier post - BEDA Day 24
I decided to go ahead and blog in the middle of the day since I feel like I'll be exhausted after today. Oh wait, I always am.
So I've been trying this whole 'don't snooze your wake up alarm and just start your day' thing and...I failed. I needed that 10 extra minutes of sleep. But I woke up after that and headed to my Design Aesthetics class only to realize that my point project [the one we've been working on for a few days] is MUCH harder than I thought it would be. I have to do layers upon layers of work. Here, I'll show you a picture of what I have done so far:
It's going to kill me but I'm super excited to have it for my own. I just got done with my tutoring for the day and then my other hopeful athlete cancelled today and won't really get with me to schedule times. Grrrrr. I'm headed to the theatre in a few to work on Eli's monologue with him and from there I'll be doing various other theatre work until tonight when it'll be another round of rehearsals. This is already getting stressful for me, so wish me luck!
Current song - The Beauty Is - The Light in the Piazza
Current cup of water - 2, thanks Alabama humidity for sucking the liquid from my body.
So I've been trying this whole 'don't snooze your wake up alarm and just start your day' thing and...I failed. I needed that 10 extra minutes of sleep. But I woke up after that and headed to my Design Aesthetics class only to realize that my point project [the one we've been working on for a few days] is MUCH harder than I thought it would be. I have to do layers upon layers of work. Here, I'll show you a picture of what I have done so far:
It's going to kill me but I'm super excited to have it for my own. I just got done with my tutoring for the day and then my other hopeful athlete cancelled today and won't really get with me to schedule times. Grrrrr. I'm headed to the theatre in a few to work on Eli's monologue with him and from there I'll be doing various other theatre work until tonight when it'll be another round of rehearsals. This is already getting stressful for me, so wish me luck!
Current song - The Beauty Is - The Light in the Piazza
Current cup of water - 2, thanks Alabama humidity for sucking the liquid from my body.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
phew...BEDA Day 23
Hi everyone! This is a delirious Kelly blog post! I'll just tell you about my day because there's really nothing else to talk about...
I got to wake up way too early on accident and headed to my lit class. We got to discuss some Cinderella [Grimm Brothers version] and some William Blake. That doesn't sound very fun, but it was actually pretty cool. I like the class so far, but we'll see how an english class goes for me... :\
I headed to Stage Makeup after that which ended up being AWESOME for the day because I learned about putting on legit stage makeup and finding my own base. Again, it sounds less thrilling, but I think this class will end up being my favorite.
I had to cancel on the tutoring session planned for today because I had to sit in on measurements but honestly, I am ridiculously excited to see more of the process when it comes to costuming, makeup, and the awesome stuff that comes along with that! I can use both of those skills if I ever work on a cruise ship. :)
Rehearsal went well, sanity is not going well, I have a lot of reading, and I'm exhausted. It's sleep time. Love you all!
Current song - SarahSnitch's end song from her videos
Current cup of water - 4, and I can drink much during rehearsal because I shouldn't pee during it...and I feel really dehydrated...
I got to wake up way too early on accident and headed to my lit class. We got to discuss some Cinderella [Grimm Brothers version] and some William Blake. That doesn't sound very fun, but it was actually pretty cool. I like the class so far, but we'll see how an english class goes for me... :\
I headed to Stage Makeup after that which ended up being AWESOME for the day because I learned about putting on legit stage makeup and finding my own base. Again, it sounds less thrilling, but I think this class will end up being my favorite.
I had to cancel on the tutoring session planned for today because I had to sit in on measurements but honestly, I am ridiculously excited to see more of the process when it comes to costuming, makeup, and the awesome stuff that comes along with that! I can use both of those skills if I ever work on a cruise ship. :)
Rehearsal went well, sanity is not going well, I have a lot of reading, and I'm exhausted. It's sleep time. Love you all!
Current song - SarahSnitch's end song from her videos
Current cup of water - 4, and I can drink much during rehearsal because I shouldn't pee during it...and I feel really dehydrated...
Monday, August 22, 2011
another day, another stress - BEDA Day 22
Guys, it's day 22. Does that mean I have barely over a week until BEDA is over?! I don't want it to be over! This has been a great way for me to channel my emotions!!!! And I know once September hits I'll be so stressed that I won't have the chance to blog much, but I wish I had longer! This started off as a great way to begin my day and now it's here to end my nights. I honestly don't even know if anyone else has the time to read my rants every day, but it feels great to get things out. I can't share everything that's going on in my life, but you get the main gist of things, and it helps me.
Today went pretty well. Only one class and then a tutoring session with my first girl...and she already knows french. I don't know what I'm going to do with that, but this is a good way to portion off my 1-3 hours prep time since she needs help with grammar. I can find some old workbooks and see what she can work with from there. Hopefully the other students of mine won't be so advanced...that might sound bad, but I don't know if I'll be of any help to this girl. She seems really nice so I hope we end up working well together.
I went to pull some rehearsal props, sit in for some measurements, and then got a chance to catch up with an old friend from freshman year. It was pretty nice because we have a few things in common [we both work at Disney, want to do something for the service industry, him with hospitality, me with entertainment management, etc] so we had a lot to catch up with because we hadn't seen each other in a long time. Hopefully we'll get to hang out more without him wanting something more than friendship from me. I'm not ready nor do I have the time to add a boy to my life. And I told him so. Very vague friends is really all I can handle. That also sounds bad, but until October I just won't have the time to work with.
Rehearsal went well today. It wasn't too crazy in any regard so I got to enjoy myself a little. I got a LOT of work done on my to do list so I think I'm ready for the day tomorrow! Not too much homework yet this early in the semester so I'm really hoping that the courseload doesn't kill me as school gets more in to the swing of things. I swear, Five days of school has felt like 20. This is so much!!
I've actually been so busy that I haven't turned on my TV in over a week. It's another reason that I don't think I'll have cable right when I get done with college and move out on my own. I don't really need it. I have enough to do already, why try to add another distraction? Anyone else ever had the same idea? I'm not really too connected to any shows in particular [So You Think You Can Dance and Glee are my two favorites when I can catch them] so it's never a huge deal if I miss one.
Anyways, bed time. Good night, all! À demain!
Current song - Shatter - OAR
Current cup of water - 4, but I feel very dehydrated....
Today went pretty well. Only one class and then a tutoring session with my first girl...and she already knows french. I don't know what I'm going to do with that, but this is a good way to portion off my 1-3 hours prep time since she needs help with grammar. I can find some old workbooks and see what she can work with from there. Hopefully the other students of mine won't be so advanced...that might sound bad, but I don't know if I'll be of any help to this girl. She seems really nice so I hope we end up working well together.
I went to pull some rehearsal props, sit in for some measurements, and then got a chance to catch up with an old friend from freshman year. It was pretty nice because we have a few things in common [we both work at Disney, want to do something for the service industry, him with hospitality, me with entertainment management, etc] so we had a lot to catch up with because we hadn't seen each other in a long time. Hopefully we'll get to hang out more without him wanting something more than friendship from me. I'm not ready nor do I have the time to add a boy to my life. And I told him so. Very vague friends is really all I can handle. That also sounds bad, but until October I just won't have the time to work with.
Rehearsal went well today. It wasn't too crazy in any regard so I got to enjoy myself a little. I got a LOT of work done on my to do list so I think I'm ready for the day tomorrow! Not too much homework yet this early in the semester so I'm really hoping that the courseload doesn't kill me as school gets more in to the swing of things. I swear, Five days of school has felt like 20. This is so much!!
I've actually been so busy that I haven't turned on my TV in over a week. It's another reason that I don't think I'll have cable right when I get done with college and move out on my own. I don't really need it. I have enough to do already, why try to add another distraction? Anyone else ever had the same idea? I'm not really too connected to any shows in particular [So You Think You Can Dance and Glee are my two favorites when I can catch them] so it's never a huge deal if I miss one.
Anyways, bed time. Good night, all! À demain!
Current song - Shatter - OAR
Current cup of water - 4, but I feel very dehydrated....
Sunday, August 21, 2011
8:36pm FTW!! BEDA Day 21
I'm posting this before 9pm!!! Yay for Sundays!!! This day actually ended up being pretty damn good considering I was going nonstop for over 10 hours yet again...
I worked in the nursery and literally almost fell asleep with a baby in my arms because I am exhausted. The baby didn't end up falling asleep so I handed him off and got to be the tickle monster for the rest of the kids. Basically, kids are a blast. I have to admit though, most of them were getting cranky and tired by the time their parents came, so I was glad to be done. Then I headed where else, but to the theatre!! I ran a good rehearsal, and I have to keep reminding myself to be assertive. It just kind of hurts my feelings when no one listens to what I have to say. Like I'm not important. Oh wait, most of you don't even know what a stage manager is...hmm....
After rehearsal I stayed at the theatre for a while longer because they were getting ready for auditions, the technical director was checking how my taping of the set went [it was speeeeecial...] and I just didn't feel like I should leave yet. I actually ended up missing a meeting for my tutoring job, but I hope that if I email them I can make it up....eek! I have my first tutoring session tomorrow so keep your fingers crossed for me!!!
After all that mess I went back to the church and helped set up/was the hostess of the greeting area. I'm a pretty personable girl so it was easy to get them to fill out an information form and make a nametag without them thinking I was creepy. :P We ate good food, met a lot of awesome people and had fun. Overall, meeting about 40 new people in two hours was a success!
After that I headed over to see my grandparents and they finished making me a LAPDESK!!! It's really freaking adorable [light blue and white checked on the board and then light yellow felt for the pillow-y part with an eyelet trim around it] and I'm typing this blog whilst using it. Yay for not so hot laps anymore! It's also huge so I'm hoping that I can do a lot with it. I really appreciate the fact that they made this for me...it's better than anything I could have bought from a store. I'm just happy :)
So after a pretty busy day, I'm in bed at 8:43pm. I plan on organizing my room and preparing for the week as much as possible, catching up on youtube, and going to bed EARLY so I can get a good night's sleep. Yay!!!
Current song - Luke Conard's VALA intro song
Current cup of water - 6
I worked in the nursery and literally almost fell asleep with a baby in my arms because I am exhausted. The baby didn't end up falling asleep so I handed him off and got to be the tickle monster for the rest of the kids. Basically, kids are a blast. I have to admit though, most of them were getting cranky and tired by the time their parents came, so I was glad to be done. Then I headed where else, but to the theatre!! I ran a good rehearsal, and I have to keep reminding myself to be assertive. It just kind of hurts my feelings when no one listens to what I have to say. Like I'm not important. Oh wait, most of you don't even know what a stage manager is...hmm....
After rehearsal I stayed at the theatre for a while longer because they were getting ready for auditions, the technical director was checking how my taping of the set went [it was speeeeecial...] and I just didn't feel like I should leave yet. I actually ended up missing a meeting for my tutoring job, but I hope that if I email them I can make it up....eek! I have my first tutoring session tomorrow so keep your fingers crossed for me!!!
After all that mess I went back to the church and helped set up/was the hostess of the greeting area. I'm a pretty personable girl so it was easy to get them to fill out an information form and make a nametag without them thinking I was creepy. :P We ate good food, met a lot of awesome people and had fun. Overall, meeting about 40 new people in two hours was a success!
After that I headed over to see my grandparents and they finished making me a LAPDESK!!! It's really freaking adorable [light blue and white checked on the board and then light yellow felt for the pillow-y part with an eyelet trim around it] and I'm typing this blog whilst using it. Yay for not so hot laps anymore! It's also huge so I'm hoping that I can do a lot with it. I really appreciate the fact that they made this for me...it's better than anything I could have bought from a store. I'm just happy :)
So after a pretty busy day, I'm in bed at 8:43pm. I plan on organizing my room and preparing for the week as much as possible, catching up on youtube, and going to bed EARLY so I can get a good night's sleep. Yay!!!
Current song - Luke Conard's VALA intro song
Current cup of water - 6
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Saturday? BEDA Day 20
Oh my goodness. I can't believe how busy I've been! How is today a Saturday??? I don't really get it at all...I went to an SM retreat, caught up with a good old friend, went to a scholarship ceremony, taped out the set for my show, helped paint a locker, got school supplies with my mom, and then hung out with some friends to watch Burlesque. I mean, I'd say it was a good day, but VERY long and still with some stress.
The retreat was great. A safe place to share stories and get new ideas and suggestions on how to handle things.
Seeing Quint, my good friend since high school, was awesome. I rarely get to see him, and talking to him has become a challenge, but it's great. We can pick up where we left off with our friendship with no problems. We literally spent an hour and a half just catching up and venting about issues. :)
The scholarship ceremony was really amazing. It was great knowing that I'm not the only one needing financial help and thriving with that help. I love it!
Taping out the set was...a challenge. My cast is going to think I was on acid or something. We literally ran out of every piece of spike tape we could find...I'll have to deal with it for 3 days...but oh my goodness...
So yeah...I had a great time today. I got to actually see people outside of a professional environment. I'm still exhausted. It's 1:30am and I need sleep before getting up just as early tomorrow morning to work at the nursery. Wish me luck!
Current song - Katy Perry medley - KurtHugoSchneider [that's his youtube name :)]
Current cup of water - 7
The retreat was great. A safe place to share stories and get new ideas and suggestions on how to handle things.
Seeing Quint, my good friend since high school, was awesome. I rarely get to see him, and talking to him has become a challenge, but it's great. We can pick up where we left off with our friendship with no problems. We literally spent an hour and a half just catching up and venting about issues. :)
The scholarship ceremony was really amazing. It was great knowing that I'm not the only one needing financial help and thriving with that help. I love it!
Taping out the set was...a challenge. My cast is going to think I was on acid or something. We literally ran out of every piece of spike tape we could find...I'll have to deal with it for 3 days...but oh my goodness...
So yeah...I had a great time today. I got to actually see people outside of a professional environment. I'm still exhausted. It's 1:30am and I need sleep before getting up just as early tomorrow morning to work at the nursery. Wish me luck!
Current song - Katy Perry medley - KurtHugoSchneider [that's his youtube name :)]
Current cup of water - 7
Friday, August 19, 2011
i'm still not ready - BEDA Day 19
I've tried to keep on top of things. Really, I have. But when to do lists are never-ending and you're being asked things 50 million times a day it gets kinda hard. I thought I knew what never-ending to do lists were....I had no idea. This is rough, guys. Really rough. I'm basically running on empty in life for a little while. Even my free day, Saturday, has turned in to a hectic day of SM work and seeing a movie. *sigh* and I thought 13 hours would be okay...
Anyways, I ran my first production meeting this morning. It went surprisingly well...I'm happy with it. I'm just ready for this to get easier...but I don't think it will. These blog posts are going to be very short, so just bear with me. Please? I love you?
Current song - Blow - Ke$ha
Current cup of water - 5
Anyways, I ran my first production meeting this morning. It went surprisingly well...I'm happy with it. I'm just ready for this to get easier...but I don't think it will. These blog posts are going to be very short, so just bear with me. Please? I love you?
Current song - Blow - Ke$ha
Current cup of water - 5
Thursday, August 18, 2011
again...BEDA Day 18
I've almost forgotten. My life is ridiculous. I was literally at the theatre from 11am-10:30pm doing SM work only for small breaks to eat. I haven't even had time to go shopping for other school supplies and read for a class. I really need to just wake up, read, and prepare myself for the onslaught of the rest of the work I'll have to do that day before rehearsal. Shit. My life. I can't. I just can't even describe right now. I wish I could. So for today...this is what you get. The jumbled mess that is my brain. I'm sorry, but I love you all. I'm going to bed before I rip my hair out..
Current song - Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt [wtf?! i never listen to that!]
Current cup of water - 7 :)
Current song - Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt [wtf?! i never listen to that!]
Current cup of water - 7 :)
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
cavities BEDA Day 16
EDIT!! I totally posted this yesterday but it didn't go through!! Thanks for letting me know, Malcolm! I wrote this yesterday so it still counts right? RIGHT?! Ahhhhh!!! Well, enjoy two posts in one day, but this should have been yesterday's!!
I have always prided myself on my teeth. They're not yellow, they're not crooked, and they've never had cavities! Until now. Dun dun duuuuuun! Seriously though, it's true. I have some pretty decent teeth and especially compared to my brother and sister, I have been proud to not have a cavity. Well, my day has arrived. I'm getting a filling today. It shouldn't be bad, but I feel like I've lost something...
Isn't that weird? When the dentist said I'd need a filling, I felt defeated. Like I'd lost the competition finally. You know, the one versus my brother and sister that never really existed? That one. And it got me thinking that sibling rivalries never end. There's always a little spark in your mind to compete and to win against the ones you know the best. It still happens every time I see them. My sister and I work out sometimes on her Wii Fit. My brother and I compete for the remote or for attention. It's crazy. I think the thing that has changed about it is that now that we're all graduated from high school and moving on, we don't fight about it as much. It's finally a friendly competition in our household, which is hilarious because I can't tell you how many times one of us has broken down in tears about something that is completely irrelevant and won't matter in 15 minutes. Sometimes I still get sensitive about certain things, and both my brother and sister have their flaws, but for the first time, I feel like we're growing together and not in spite of each other. And that's a lovely feeling :)
So yes, today my plans are a filling and....seeing Nancy and/or Sarah! I get to celebrate my best friend's birthday!!!
I have always prided myself on my teeth. They're not yellow, they're not crooked, and they've never had cavities! Until now. Dun dun duuuuuun! Seriously though, it's true. I have some pretty decent teeth and especially compared to my brother and sister, I have been proud to not have a cavity. Well, my day has arrived. I'm getting a filling today. It shouldn't be bad, but I feel like I've lost something...
Isn't that weird? When the dentist said I'd need a filling, I felt defeated. Like I'd lost the competition finally. You know, the one versus my brother and sister that never really existed? That one. And it got me thinking that sibling rivalries never end. There's always a little spark in your mind to compete and to win against the ones you know the best. It still happens every time I see them. My sister and I work out sometimes on her Wii Fit. My brother and I compete for the remote or for attention. It's crazy. I think the thing that has changed about it is that now that we're all graduated from high school and moving on, we don't fight about it as much. It's finally a friendly competition in our household, which is hilarious because I can't tell you how many times one of us has broken down in tears about something that is completely irrelevant and won't matter in 15 minutes. Sometimes I still get sensitive about certain things, and both my brother and sister have their flaws, but for the first time, I feel like we're growing together and not in spite of each other. And that's a lovely feeling :)
So yes, today my plans are a filling and....seeing Nancy and/or Sarah! I get to celebrate my best friend's birthday!!!
and so it begins...BEDA Day 17
Well, here goes nothing. Here goes a semester of college that might kill me by the end of it, but at the same time I am pretty excited. First day of school, new classes, new friends, new experiences. It's exciting and terrifying at the same time. I think I can do this. I can get my butt to classes and work hard in everything that I do to make a good impression. Most importantly, I can have fun. :) But you don't get the scoop on classes until tomorrow, because I'm writing this at 7:30am before I take my shower and actually start getting ready.
Today is also a very special day because it is my best friend's birthday! Sarah is finally 21 and I'm so excited to go to the bars with her tonight and party it up! This girl has been with me through everything I've ever been through in Auburn. I've known her since the 2nd grade, and ever since then, we've been close. She was one of the two friends I have that actually kept up with me when I moved away to high school in 9th grade, and I know that she'll always have my back. I don't know if she'll read this, but if she does, this is for you. Sarah, I love you and I'm so glad that I have a friend that I can count on and joke with. I hope that your birthday goes well and just know that your guardian angel is there to watch you forever. :)
Honestly, this might be short, but I'll leave it for now. I have a lot to do to get ready!
Current song - I Wanna Go - Britney Spears
Current cup of water - 0 today, but I drank like 7 or 8 yesterday!!
Today is also a very special day because it is my best friend's birthday! Sarah is finally 21 and I'm so excited to go to the bars with her tonight and party it up! This girl has been with me through everything I've ever been through in Auburn. I've known her since the 2nd grade, and ever since then, we've been close. She was one of the two friends I have that actually kept up with me when I moved away to high school in 9th grade, and I know that she'll always have my back. I don't know if she'll read this, but if she does, this is for you. Sarah, I love you and I'm so glad that I have a friend that I can count on and joke with. I hope that your birthday goes well and just know that your guardian angel is there to watch you forever. :)
Honestly, this might be short, but I'll leave it for now. I have a lot to do to get ready!
Current song - I Wanna Go - Britney Spears
Current cup of water - 0 today, but I drank like 7 or 8 yesterday!!
Monday, August 15, 2011
almost forgot...again....BEDA Day 15
This is the second time I've almost forgotten to post and I'm only halfway finished with the month. Guys!! This can't be good! This might mean that I have to post every morning even if it's boring because I'll never have anything to talk about. Ahh!!!
So it's 11pm and I'm sitting in my bed watching all the youtube videos from today and I see Madeleine's VEDA vlog and I was like 'shit I haven't blogged today omg!!!!'....so thanks for that, Madeleine!!
How was my day? Surprisingly busy, but not stressful in the least! Days like these are what makes my summer a great summer. I'm not ready to let it go at all, but the inevitable is approaching and I must sigh and enjoy this last day as much as I can.
So today I woke up too early [as usual. thanks, body] and just surfed the web for a bit until it was time to start getting ready for tutor training. I'm still wearing in my TOMS but the blisters forming on my heels are not very happy with me. Still, the training went well and I'm ready to meet my three athletes and start setting up tutoring schedules!! After that I went back to my apartment and had a meeting with the roomies and the two people that help us out the most, or our 'landlords' I guess. We talked about our duties and I took on the task of being the calendar maker for our chores. Because I don't have enough tasks on my plate...
After that I took my brother and the freshman roomie to Haley to figure out how that building works and even gave them a few room numbers to find on their own. It was great for them because now they know how the most confusing building on campus works. We then walked back to the church and proceeded to hang out. Something these boys really like to do. After all of these shenanigans I did a few things: went textbook shopping with my dad only to find that the majority of things will be at the on-campus bookstore instead of our favorite, went to Wal Mart, went to visit Poppy, had some daddy/daughter time, went to dinner, headed to Sno Biz with my brother, Madeleine, Jennie, Emily, Scott, Daniel, Cody, and Wesley.
Overall, I'd consider this the perfect summer day. I don't want things to end, but my body can tell a change is coming. In my training, my body went in to classroom mode and it just knows....am I ready? I have no idea. Will I make myself be ready? Yes. I can do this! I just don't want to quite yet...but really? Honestly? Who does? Not me!
Current song - I Wanna Go - Britney Spears
Current cup of water - 6 :)
So it's 11pm and I'm sitting in my bed watching all the youtube videos from today and I see Madeleine's VEDA vlog and I was like 'shit I haven't blogged today omg!!!!'....so thanks for that, Madeleine!!
How was my day? Surprisingly busy, but not stressful in the least! Days like these are what makes my summer a great summer. I'm not ready to let it go at all, but the inevitable is approaching and I must sigh and enjoy this last day as much as I can.
So today I woke up too early [as usual. thanks, body] and just surfed the web for a bit until it was time to start getting ready for tutor training. I'm still wearing in my TOMS but the blisters forming on my heels are not very happy with me. Still, the training went well and I'm ready to meet my three athletes and start setting up tutoring schedules!! After that I went back to my apartment and had a meeting with the roomies and the two people that help us out the most, or our 'landlords' I guess. We talked about our duties and I took on the task of being the calendar maker for our chores. Because I don't have enough tasks on my plate...
After that I took my brother and the freshman roomie to Haley to figure out how that building works and even gave them a few room numbers to find on their own. It was great for them because now they know how the most confusing building on campus works. We then walked back to the church and proceeded to hang out. Something these boys really like to do. After all of these shenanigans I did a few things: went textbook shopping with my dad only to find that the majority of things will be at the on-campus bookstore instead of our favorite, went to Wal Mart, went to visit Poppy, had some daddy/daughter time, went to dinner, headed to Sno Biz with my brother, Madeleine, Jennie, Emily, Scott, Daniel, Cody, and Wesley.
Overall, I'd consider this the perfect summer day. I don't want things to end, but my body can tell a change is coming. In my training, my body went in to classroom mode and it just knows....am I ready? I have no idea. Will I make myself be ready? Yes. I can do this! I just don't want to quite yet...but really? Honestly? Who does? Not me!
Current song - I Wanna Go - Britney Spears
Current cup of water - 6 :)
Sunday, August 14, 2011
BEDA Day 14
I decided not to blog as soon as I woke up this morning because I knew I'd have more to say once I finished work. :)
Yesterday ended up being very painless. Cody was much easier to move in than anyone else I've ever helped move. I guess that's what happens with three strong guys! We moved his stuff in and proceeded to get his room settled for a while before heading out for a small shopping trip and some lunch. I got my first pair of TOMS and I think I'm a little too excited about them. They're really comfortable and after wearing them for one day, my heels hurt. But I think that's more because I have really soft and uncalloused skin so it's just me being a wimp. I can't wait to wear them every day because they're super comfy and will go with almost anything I want to wear.
After chilling for a while I decided to meet up with Madeleine, Jennie, and Emily for mexican food, shopping, and visiting families. It was really fun, but I don't really know what else to say...so....yay??
Today I woke up and went to work in the nursery and it's always really fun to see the kids. We had a decent amount of babies without being overwhelmed. And no dirty diapers!!! Yayyyy!!! This blog seems really boring today. I'm sorry for the amount of borededness but I don't really have much going on. I'm treasuring my relaxation time for now because I'm scared that there won't be any later...
Current song - Auburn Fight Song
Current cup of water - 3
Yesterday ended up being very painless. Cody was much easier to move in than anyone else I've ever helped move. I guess that's what happens with three strong guys! We moved his stuff in and proceeded to get his room settled for a while before heading out for a small shopping trip and some lunch. I got my first pair of TOMS and I think I'm a little too excited about them. They're really comfortable and after wearing them for one day, my heels hurt. But I think that's more because I have really soft and uncalloused skin so it's just me being a wimp. I can't wait to wear them every day because they're super comfy and will go with almost anything I want to wear.
After chilling for a while I decided to meet up with Madeleine, Jennie, and Emily for mexican food, shopping, and visiting families. It was really fun, but I don't really know what else to say...so....yay??
Today I woke up and went to work in the nursery and it's always really fun to see the kids. We had a decent amount of babies without being overwhelmed. And no dirty diapers!!! Yayyyy!!! This blog seems really boring today. I'm sorry for the amount of borededness but I don't really have much going on. I'm treasuring my relaxation time for now because I'm scared that there won't be any later...
Current song - Auburn Fight Song
Current cup of water - 3
Saturday, August 13, 2011
reflection BEDA Day 13
Guys, I never thought I'd be this girl. You know, the girl in college that has, oh I don't know, THREE JOBS AND FULL TIME SCHOOL AND REHEARSALS EVERY DAY. Ahhhhhh what have I done? I am now TERRIFIED for classes to start because I will literally have no time to spare. Maybe in October once I've finished the show but even then....I'll still have three FREAKING jobs. I'm now working at the church nursery [same job, I love the little kids!] basically every week because there are now only three regular workers and two of them don't need to work every week so that lovely task will be up to me. Next in line is the athletic department tutoring, which I'll be doing french. I'm really excited about that one because french is my favorite language and teaching it isn't too hard for me. The last job, the one I got yesterday, is being a server at Ariccia which is a swanky place at the university's hotel and conference center. I'll be starting as a server's assistant since I've never had any full service experience but hopefully by the time I'm done with the show I'll get to be a full server and work double shifts on Saturdays which means mucho tips!
Now don't get me wrong, if I thought that I really couldn't do this, I wouldn't. And if it gets too overwhelming I can tell one or more jobs that I need to cut back. But for now, I think this could work....maybe. I'm really scared. I actually want all of these jobs because they're good experiences for me, but handling three jobs plus full time school and rehearsals every day is going to be a challenge. Does anyone think that I'm insane? Do you think I can do it?
Moving on, I'm helping one of the new roomies move in today because he's been living with an old youth director of mine and she is happily pregnant!!! I can't wait to see her, and a new roomie is always a fun experience. So many changes in my life are happening, and I'm counting on family and friends to keep me sane whilst I attempt to stay alive throughout this mess!
Until next time
Current song - Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo
Current cup of water - 2
Now don't get me wrong, if I thought that I really couldn't do this, I wouldn't. And if it gets too overwhelming I can tell one or more jobs that I need to cut back. But for now, I think this could work....maybe. I'm really scared. I actually want all of these jobs because they're good experiences for me, but handling three jobs plus full time school and rehearsals every day is going to be a challenge. Does anyone think that I'm insane? Do you think I can do it?
Moving on, I'm helping one of the new roomies move in today because he's been living with an old youth director of mine and she is happily pregnant!!! I can't wait to see her, and a new roomie is always a fun experience. So many changes in my life are happening, and I'm counting on family and friends to keep me sane whilst I attempt to stay alive throughout this mess!
Until next time
Current song - Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo
Current cup of water - 2
Friday, August 12, 2011
Carpe diem BEDA Day 12
Alright, I'm not gonna lie, I never took Latin. But even I know that 'Carpe diem' means 'seize the day' and I'm thinking of getting some TOMS with that on them. If you don't know what TOMS are, they're [apparently really comfy] shoes that donate a pair of shoes to a child who doesn't have any every time you buy a pair. And I've been dying to have a pair of my own for years. I promised myself that when my scholarship money came in, that would be my only frivolous purchase, and the money came in today so I'm itching to go get some!
Speaking of scholarship money, let me tell you a little about how my day went yesterday. In short, it was a huge rollercoaster of ups and downs. But let's explain the long version:
The day started off like any other. I checked my email and I see that a direct deposit receipt came to my school account. Obviously, this is my scholarship money so I get really excited! $950, here I come! I open up the receipt and see only $551. That's odd, I thought, I know that I don't have a $700 meal plan to pay for, so I should definitely have another $400 on this receipt. So I called my mom and made the decision to call the scholarship office after my interview with a job to be a tutor on campus. I tried to push the money to the back of my mind as I headed inside for my interview, and I guess I was successful because the woman and I had a really nice interview. I got the job! My head was in the clouds because the job seemed much more appealing once she asked me to be a french tutor! I can work anywhere from 4-10 hours a week and I'm excited!
So I got home, waited until the lunch break was over and I called the office. They transferred me two or three times before I finally got an answer. The program that my grandfather got for me when I was a child to cover my tuition is slowly going down and not being recognized by the state any more because it's losing a lot of funding. They told me that the state will only cover the 2010 rates of tuition for me so I had to pay another $400 because of it. I don't mean to whine, but I needed that $400. And I've never been asked to pay for any part of my own schooling. I worked my ass off for the scholarships that I got, and having to pay $300 for food every semester is bad enough, but another $400? That's over half of the scholarship money that I earned, and I'd really like to have it. UGH!!!
So I was still kinda pissy when my sister asked me to come to her house and play Wii Fit to work out a little. I took my frustration out on that game and succeeded in at least laughing again. By the time I left my sister's, I had just enough time to shower and get ready for road trip time with Madeleine to pick up her friend Emily from the Atlanta airport. We didn't even turn on music for the first half of the road trip which is unheard of for Madeleine and I. We had so much to talk about and so we spent an hour and a half talking about everything from moving out for the first time to how money is a life-sucking ASS that needs to go away. Anyways, we made it to the airport, picked up Emily, let her experience Chick Fil A for the first time, and headed on home. It was a great ride and Emily and Madeleine sat in the back seat catching up while I said my two cents worth and tried to make them laugh every once in a while.
So I'm glad that my day ended on a high note, but it had some pretty sour points in there that just peeved me all day long. But today is a new day. I have one more job interview that I am nervous about, but I know that I'll do my best. Now with the tutoring job I'll have less time, but in the end, whatever is meant to be will happen. I'm not going to force anything and lie by saying I have a ton of time to devote, but I'm not going to botch my interview. I want a good name wherever I go, so let's hope for a good interview! Now it's time to go straighten my hair and do something to look cute. It's a rough task!
Current song - Seize the Day - 'Newsies' soundtrack
Current cup of water - 1, this is not very impressive because I always write at the beginning of the day!
Speaking of scholarship money, let me tell you a little about how my day went yesterday. In short, it was a huge rollercoaster of ups and downs. But let's explain the long version:
The day started off like any other. I checked my email and I see that a direct deposit receipt came to my school account. Obviously, this is my scholarship money so I get really excited! $950, here I come! I open up the receipt and see only $551. That's odd, I thought, I know that I don't have a $700 meal plan to pay for, so I should definitely have another $400 on this receipt. So I called my mom and made the decision to call the scholarship office after my interview with a job to be a tutor on campus. I tried to push the money to the back of my mind as I headed inside for my interview, and I guess I was successful because the woman and I had a really nice interview. I got the job! My head was in the clouds because the job seemed much more appealing once she asked me to be a french tutor! I can work anywhere from 4-10 hours a week and I'm excited!
So I got home, waited until the lunch break was over and I called the office. They transferred me two or three times before I finally got an answer. The program that my grandfather got for me when I was a child to cover my tuition is slowly going down and not being recognized by the state any more because it's losing a lot of funding. They told me that the state will only cover the 2010 rates of tuition for me so I had to pay another $400 because of it. I don't mean to whine, but I needed that $400. And I've never been asked to pay for any part of my own schooling. I worked my ass off for the scholarships that I got, and having to pay $300 for food every semester is bad enough, but another $400? That's over half of the scholarship money that I earned, and I'd really like to have it. UGH!!!
So I was still kinda pissy when my sister asked me to come to her house and play Wii Fit to work out a little. I took my frustration out on that game and succeeded in at least laughing again. By the time I left my sister's, I had just enough time to shower and get ready for road trip time with Madeleine to pick up her friend Emily from the Atlanta airport. We didn't even turn on music for the first half of the road trip which is unheard of for Madeleine and I. We had so much to talk about and so we spent an hour and a half talking about everything from moving out for the first time to how money is a life-sucking ASS that needs to go away. Anyways, we made it to the airport, picked up Emily, let her experience Chick Fil A for the first time, and headed on home. It was a great ride and Emily and Madeleine sat in the back seat catching up while I said my two cents worth and tried to make them laugh every once in a while.
So I'm glad that my day ended on a high note, but it had some pretty sour points in there that just peeved me all day long. But today is a new day. I have one more job interview that I am nervous about, but I know that I'll do my best. Now with the tutoring job I'll have less time, but in the end, whatever is meant to be will happen. I'm not going to force anything and lie by saying I have a ton of time to devote, but I'm not going to botch my interview. I want a good name wherever I go, so let's hope for a good interview! Now it's time to go straighten my hair and do something to look cute. It's a rough task!
Current song - Seize the Day - 'Newsies' soundtrack
Current cup of water - 1, this is not very impressive because I always write at the beginning of the day!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
BEDA Day 11
Well, now I'm posting at 7am because I'm awake this early and I'm terrified of forgetting to post today. That's the polar opposite, haha.
I have a dentist appointment, an interview that I haven't been given time or place of, and a road trip to and from Atlanta with Madeleine today. It's going to be a busy day, but hopefully I'll come out of it with clean teeth, a job, and a new friend! :)
In other news, my stomach has been hurting randomly since yesterday. Like right now, I'm hunched over in pain. I'm really hoping that it'll be fine for my dentist appointment because it would just be awkward if I told them to stop because my stomach hurts too much. Wish me luck!
I know that this post is boring because I haven't done anything today but I have a back up! An acquaintance of mine, Fredric, expressed interest in a rant that I had once about what guys do and what they should do, so I think I can at least hit a few high points in the blog right now, but let me preface this with the fact that I know not all boys are like this. I know some great guys that do fine without ever showing one of these characteristics to me, and when that happens it's very refreshing.
You see, bloggies, I have this thing about guys. Unfortunately I'm the type to learn through experiencing so I've had a few too many bad experiences with boys. And right around February was when I finally said that I don't need or want a boy in my life romantically because they're just too much stress on me. I've come to find that they need so much or work hard to hurt me, and I'm not ready for that yet. So here we go!
Let's see, what boys do:
-Well there's always the basic lying, cheating, or avoiding a subject because they did wrong.
-They can be standoffish until they need something and then they give you attention.
-On the other side of the spectrum, they can smother you with attention and not give you space to breathe.
-I think in general, guys just feel like they need someone there. The rock, the mommy, call it what you will. They don't like to be alone because they'd rather have someone else take care of the mess.
That's just four things. I'm sure when I'm in a huge ranting mood I could think of more, but this is the rational side of me looking back on memories. Now for what boys should do:
-Instead of lying, cheating, or avoiding a subject, boys should be up front with issues because communication is one of the biggest problems in relationships. With me now especially, lying is a huge betrayal to me. Keeping something from me hurts, and it makes me feel like you don't trust me, so why would you lie to me? Cheating, well, that should be a given. I'm not a play thing that you can pick up whenever you feel like it and then toss away again when I'm not around or become boring. That's disrespectful and shows me you haven't gotten past the 'women are inferior' complex that men have in their brains. Avoiding a subject because you know you've done something wrong is childish. Man up and admit that you've done wrong right off the bat and I'm more likely to forgive you. Don't be a baby.
-With being standoffish, I've had experience. Guys refuse to say they need help, need someone, or really say that they care. Then they realize 'oh hey, I'd better give that girl attention for a little while so she'll stay around' and after a few days of attention they go back to mistreating/ignoring you. It's so confusing for girls when guys do this because we're not sure how real it is for the guy. Do they actually like us? Are we the weird ones for wanting consistency? And then the girl starts wondering if she's an over-analyzing, simpering little freak.
-Smothering. This is something fairly recent in my experience with guys. They like you too much. They want to always talk with you, check in, be by your side. They tell you that you're the only good part of their life. I'm sure you guys are saying 'well that's a fairy tale, a dream come true, right?' that's what I thought too. But you know what? Some times you do need space. You need to remember that you are two separate people that need to work properly on their own in order to work well together. So smothering is not the answer to all of these standoffish men.
-What should guys do about the last problem? GROW UP! Don't date a girl because you need order in your life. Get your own damn life together before trying to find someone. Don't let the girl be either the mommy of the relationship or the only thing that will make you happy. You've got to find a balance, you've got to know who you are. If you find that you're a complete dork and you like to stay in on the weekends, chances are there's a girl just like that. You might just find her one day. If you find that you like to party it up every night of the week, there's a girl for you. Find someone that you could live without, but you enjoy being around no matter what. That girl is worth your time. And once you get her, treat her well. Treat her like she's important without being overbearing or a pushover. Just, enjoy the time you have together.
I'm sorry if this got a little lecture-y, but it's what I feel. Again, this is not all girls' or boys' opinions, it's just what I've learned through experience and talking it over with a few friends.
I hope that everyone has a great day, and now I'm off to the dentist!
Current song - You Are the One - Skyway Flyer
Current cup of water - First cup of the day!
I have a dentist appointment, an interview that I haven't been given time or place of, and a road trip to and from Atlanta with Madeleine today. It's going to be a busy day, but hopefully I'll come out of it with clean teeth, a job, and a new friend! :)
In other news, my stomach has been hurting randomly since yesterday. Like right now, I'm hunched over in pain. I'm really hoping that it'll be fine for my dentist appointment because it would just be awkward if I told them to stop because my stomach hurts too much. Wish me luck!
I know that this post is boring because I haven't done anything today but I have a back up! An acquaintance of mine, Fredric, expressed interest in a rant that I had once about what guys do and what they should do, so I think I can at least hit a few high points in the blog right now, but let me preface this with the fact that I know not all boys are like this. I know some great guys that do fine without ever showing one of these characteristics to me, and when that happens it's very refreshing.
You see, bloggies, I have this thing about guys. Unfortunately I'm the type to learn through experiencing so I've had a few too many bad experiences with boys. And right around February was when I finally said that I don't need or want a boy in my life romantically because they're just too much stress on me. I've come to find that they need so much or work hard to hurt me, and I'm not ready for that yet. So here we go!
Let's see, what boys do:
-Well there's always the basic lying, cheating, or avoiding a subject because they did wrong.
-They can be standoffish until they need something and then they give you attention.
-On the other side of the spectrum, they can smother you with attention and not give you space to breathe.
-I think in general, guys just feel like they need someone there. The rock, the mommy, call it what you will. They don't like to be alone because they'd rather have someone else take care of the mess.
That's just four things. I'm sure when I'm in a huge ranting mood I could think of more, but this is the rational side of me looking back on memories. Now for what boys should do:
-Instead of lying, cheating, or avoiding a subject, boys should be up front with issues because communication is one of the biggest problems in relationships. With me now especially, lying is a huge betrayal to me. Keeping something from me hurts, and it makes me feel like you don't trust me, so why would you lie to me? Cheating, well, that should be a given. I'm not a play thing that you can pick up whenever you feel like it and then toss away again when I'm not around or become boring. That's disrespectful and shows me you haven't gotten past the 'women are inferior' complex that men have in their brains. Avoiding a subject because you know you've done something wrong is childish. Man up and admit that you've done wrong right off the bat and I'm more likely to forgive you. Don't be a baby.
-With being standoffish, I've had experience. Guys refuse to say they need help, need someone, or really say that they care. Then they realize 'oh hey, I'd better give that girl attention for a little while so she'll stay around' and after a few days of attention they go back to mistreating/ignoring you. It's so confusing for girls when guys do this because we're not sure how real it is for the guy. Do they actually like us? Are we the weird ones for wanting consistency? And then the girl starts wondering if she's an over-analyzing, simpering little freak.
-Smothering. This is something fairly recent in my experience with guys. They like you too much. They want to always talk with you, check in, be by your side. They tell you that you're the only good part of their life. I'm sure you guys are saying 'well that's a fairy tale, a dream come true, right?' that's what I thought too. But you know what? Some times you do need space. You need to remember that you are two separate people that need to work properly on their own in order to work well together. So smothering is not the answer to all of these standoffish men.
-What should guys do about the last problem? GROW UP! Don't date a girl because you need order in your life. Get your own damn life together before trying to find someone. Don't let the girl be either the mommy of the relationship or the only thing that will make you happy. You've got to find a balance, you've got to know who you are. If you find that you're a complete dork and you like to stay in on the weekends, chances are there's a girl just like that. You might just find her one day. If you find that you like to party it up every night of the week, there's a girl for you. Find someone that you could live without, but you enjoy being around no matter what. That girl is worth your time. And once you get her, treat her well. Treat her like she's important without being overbearing or a pushover. Just, enjoy the time you have together.
I'm sorry if this got a little lecture-y, but it's what I feel. Again, this is not all girls' or boys' opinions, it's just what I've learned through experience and talking it over with a few friends.
I hope that everyone has a great day, and now I'm off to the dentist!
Current song - You Are the One - Skyway Flyer
Current cup of water - First cup of the day!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
i almost forgot! BEDA Day 10
Guys, I'm so used to posting my blogs early in the morning [because I'm a freak like that] that I almost forgot to post today! It's 9:40pm and I'm just now typing this!! Mind you, I have been working on the computer a lot today, so it feels like I've typed enough to have posted numerous times!
Today is a very special day. My daddy turned 59 today. Without him, I obviously wouldn't be here, and without him, the world would be a much sadder place. My dad is seriously one of the best people that has graced this world with his presence, and no I'm not just saying that because I'm his daughter. He was always an amazing student, got scholarships to college, worked jobs throughout while also being in Navy ROTC, then went on to become a Navy pilot, a lawyer, and now an instructor here at college. My dad is: a badass. He lives for Auburn, has consistently loved the same woman for over 28 years [seriously guys, they're super cute together even now] and has always gone through life with a smile on his face and a story to tell. My dad has been through some rough times both physically and mentally, but you really wouldn't know by the way he acts. He's selfless, he pours his heart and soul in to everything he does, and I love him.
I've always been a daddy's girl. From the moment I was born, they all knew. I liked being in my daddy's arms so much that from when I was an infant until I was about 5 or 6 years old, I would fall asleep in my daddy's arms every single night without fail. At first it was with a bottle but then I graduated to juice and a bedtime story and I'm sure by the end of it I was reading him the stories. He loved every second of it. And really, I've never been ashamed of him, never hated him, never really wanted to be apart from him. I love that man with all my heart. :)
I think I'm done being ridiculously sappy tonight. But if he ever reads this, I'd love to say Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you and I'm proud to be your Khaki bean!
Current song - Tonight, tonight -Jimmy Wong and Strawburry17
Current cup of water - 6
Today is a very special day. My daddy turned 59 today. Without him, I obviously wouldn't be here, and without him, the world would be a much sadder place. My dad is seriously one of the best people that has graced this world with his presence, and no I'm not just saying that because I'm his daughter. He was always an amazing student, got scholarships to college, worked jobs throughout while also being in Navy ROTC, then went on to become a Navy pilot, a lawyer, and now an instructor here at college. My dad is: a badass. He lives for Auburn, has consistently loved the same woman for over 28 years [seriously guys, they're super cute together even now] and has always gone through life with a smile on his face and a story to tell. My dad has been through some rough times both physically and mentally, but you really wouldn't know by the way he acts. He's selfless, he pours his heart and soul in to everything he does, and I love him.
I've always been a daddy's girl. From the moment I was born, they all knew. I liked being in my daddy's arms so much that from when I was an infant until I was about 5 or 6 years old, I would fall asleep in my daddy's arms every single night without fail. At first it was with a bottle but then I graduated to juice and a bedtime story and I'm sure by the end of it I was reading him the stories. He loved every second of it. And really, I've never been ashamed of him, never hated him, never really wanted to be apart from him. I love that man with all my heart. :)
I think I'm done being ridiculously sappy tonight. But if he ever reads this, I'd love to say Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you and I'm proud to be your Khaki bean!
Current song - Tonight, tonight -Jimmy Wong and Strawburry17
Current cup of water - 6
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
humble BEDA Day 9
I've just finished something both humbling and exciting. My best friend since the second grade, Sarah, asked if I would recommend her to the Peace Corps. I have never been asked to be a recommendation, but I was thoroughly honored. I think I remember crying because I was so shocked and thrilled to be asked that of me. Well, I just submitted the recommendation and I'm still a little overwhelmed at what my best friend is considering for a life career. I've known only one other person to work for the Peace Corps and one friend to work for AmeriCorps, and I have never been more proud to say that my friends are that willing to help others out.
I like to think that I help out in small ways. I recycle as much as I can even though no one picks up our recycling. [we have to take it to the recycling center ourselves, always a fun task] I've always been helpful to others, if there is a charity event around I try to take part in it. [one of the few things I enjoy about sororities is that they do at least one charity event a year. and since there fore 14 or so sororities, I've had many choices] and I'm an all-around decent person. But seeing these friends go places like Madagascar, New Orleans, El Salvador, and Philadelphia with the sole purpose of helping others, for months at a time, well....I'm humbled. There was no better way for me to express these thoughts than here on my blog, but sometimes I regret spending so much time only thinking about myself and being on the internet browsing things that I enjoy instead of being out in the world actually doing something for others. But today I did. Today, I recommended the only person I could think of that deserves an experience like the Peace Corps. The fact that she is so eager to apply and help is just the tip of the iceberg. Sarah actually deserves this. She's kind, loyal, helpful, and focuses on a community-based life. She can smile and light up an entire room because that's how bright she can be. And the fact that she doesn't want to go to med school and be a doctor with a nice income is another reason, because Sarah definitely could ace med school. She has the potential to do whatever she wants, and she chose the most giving and sharing career path ever.
Basically, I am proud to call her my oldest best friend. I've never known anyone like her and I hope I never do. She is one of my favorite people in the world and I know that she will succeed in anything that she does.
I don't care that I spent paragraphs praising my best friend. SHE'S AWESOME SO THERE!
I think I might make those cookies or muffins for my Poppy's nursing home today. I want to give back. :)
Current song - Skyscraper -Luke Conard
Current cup of water - 2
I like to think that I help out in small ways. I recycle as much as I can even though no one picks up our recycling. [we have to take it to the recycling center ourselves, always a fun task] I've always been helpful to others, if there is a charity event around I try to take part in it. [one of the few things I enjoy about sororities is that they do at least one charity event a year. and since there fore 14 or so sororities, I've had many choices] and I'm an all-around decent person. But seeing these friends go places like Madagascar, New Orleans, El Salvador, and Philadelphia with the sole purpose of helping others, for months at a time, well....I'm humbled. There was no better way for me to express these thoughts than here on my blog, but sometimes I regret spending so much time only thinking about myself and being on the internet browsing things that I enjoy instead of being out in the world actually doing something for others. But today I did. Today, I recommended the only person I could think of that deserves an experience like the Peace Corps. The fact that she is so eager to apply and help is just the tip of the iceberg. Sarah actually deserves this. She's kind, loyal, helpful, and focuses on a community-based life. She can smile and light up an entire room because that's how bright she can be. And the fact that she doesn't want to go to med school and be a doctor with a nice income is another reason, because Sarah definitely could ace med school. She has the potential to do whatever she wants, and she chose the most giving and sharing career path ever.
Basically, I am proud to call her my oldest best friend. I've never known anyone like her and I hope I never do. She is one of my favorite people in the world and I know that she will succeed in anything that she does.
I don't care that I spent paragraphs praising my best friend. SHE'S AWESOME SO THERE!
I think I might make those cookies or muffins for my Poppy's nursing home today. I want to give back. :)
Current song - Skyscraper -Luke Conard
Current cup of water - 2
Monday, August 8, 2011
early morning BEDA Day 8 post!
I had a really weird dream last night. I was hanging with some theatre kids and Houston wanted to show Emily and I a place right off campus that was delicious to eat. We took golf carts to a drop off point and then we had to climb through foamy, mushy [in a good way] mountains. We'd lost Houston by that point, but some middle school friends had met up with us. While we were getting through the mountain we started singing 'Go the Distance' from Hercules, and as soon as I sang the last line from the song I saw the finish point. We got done with the mountain climb and were told that the BBQ place Houston liked was right next door. Inside was a LOT of meat so I thought I wasn't going to eat, but when I sat down, Emily had prepared a meal of chicken nuggets and fries for me so I could eat. :)
Now this is where the dream gets weird...
I don't remember if we had shrunk, or if we had something that this woman liked to throw darts/sharp killing objects at, but she was after us. We did some movie action moves and made it back to the mushy mountain where she couldn't get to us and that's where that part ended. The next thing I know, I'm emailing Dr. May saying I can't SM La Bête anymore and that she'll have to find someone else. That part seemed so real that I woke up and made sure I hadn't texted or emailed her because I was definitely up to the challenge!!!
And the strangest dream award goes to....KELLY!!
Anyways, that's all I really have to blog about since I literally just woke up. In good news, I am talking with SHAUNA!!!! I'm not exactly sure how many hours difference there is for us, but I do know that it's hard for her to communicate without having to leave. I love having international friends! I have one in Ireland, Paris, Norway, and I think that's it. Disney and Harry Potter really are two amazing communities. The only wish that I have right now is to be able to fly out to California for the D23 convention. Sadly, I'll be too busy and broke to go. :(
Current song - Jar of Hearts - Boyce Avenue
Current cup of water - reaching for the first one right....now!
any other countdown ideas???
Now this is where the dream gets weird...
I don't remember if we had shrunk, or if we had something that this woman liked to throw darts/sharp killing objects at, but she was after us. We did some movie action moves and made it back to the mushy mountain where she couldn't get to us and that's where that part ended. The next thing I know, I'm emailing Dr. May saying I can't SM La Bête anymore and that she'll have to find someone else. That part seemed so real that I woke up and made sure I hadn't texted or emailed her because I was definitely up to the challenge!!!
And the strangest dream award goes to....KELLY!!
Anyways, that's all I really have to blog about since I literally just woke up. In good news, I am talking with SHAUNA!!!! I'm not exactly sure how many hours difference there is for us, but I do know that it's hard for her to communicate without having to leave. I love having international friends! I have one in Ireland, Paris, Norway, and I think that's it. Disney and Harry Potter really are two amazing communities. The only wish that I have right now is to be able to fly out to California for the D23 convention. Sadly, I'll be too busy and broke to go. :(
Current song - Jar of Hearts - Boyce Avenue
Current cup of water - reaching for the first one right....now!
any other countdown ideas???
Sunday, August 7, 2011
putting my big girl panties on. BEDA Day 7
Let's get down to business...to defeat....MY LIFE! I have so much to get done and I'm inspired to do it but then I get stuck surfing the net for hours upon hours without realizing that I've wasted my whole day. Things need to change around here if I'm going to succeed this semester.
For starters, I have a ton of SM work to be doing. I will get on that today. I must.
Then, I have a responsibility that I've placed on myself to go and visit my grandfather more often. I went today with my brother and he was definitely happy to see us. I brought him a Diet Coke and a fun size Baby Ruth.
But that's not all. Seeing all those older people with no visitors to love them, I've decided to start small. I'm making cookies or muffins for them the next time I go in. I want them to feel loved. Eventually I'd like to visit with other residents and get to know them. Some of them just want a little attention, and I'm sure my young face in there every once in a while would be like a breath of fresh air to them.
I want to take a big part in both AU Players and Alpha Psi Omega this year. I want things to happen and I want to be a part of them happening. I always have great ideas and plans and I want them to benefit our department and our social lives. We'll see what happens.
For today, I've come back to my apartment with my sister's puppy. I'm taking her home to my sister once she's done with some errands [she's been in Montgomery all weekend as well] and we'll compare purchases from the weekend and do a little working out on her Wii Fit. And although this puppy is feeling pretty blue and sick today, I'm quite content with my beautiful canine niece. She's adorable. :)
Current song - Summer of '09 - ALL CAPS
Current cup of water - 3
I thought of a third countdown but I can't remember what it is....
For starters, I have a ton of SM work to be doing. I will get on that today. I must.
Then, I have a responsibility that I've placed on myself to go and visit my grandfather more often. I went today with my brother and he was definitely happy to see us. I brought him a Diet Coke and a fun size Baby Ruth.
But that's not all. Seeing all those older people with no visitors to love them, I've decided to start small. I'm making cookies or muffins for them the next time I go in. I want them to feel loved. Eventually I'd like to visit with other residents and get to know them. Some of them just want a little attention, and I'm sure my young face in there every once in a while would be like a breath of fresh air to them.
I want to take a big part in both AU Players and Alpha Psi Omega this year. I want things to happen and I want to be a part of them happening. I always have great ideas and plans and I want them to benefit our department and our social lives. We'll see what happens.
For today, I've come back to my apartment with my sister's puppy. I'm taking her home to my sister once she's done with some errands [she's been in Montgomery all weekend as well] and we'll compare purchases from the weekend and do a little working out on her Wii Fit. And although this puppy is feeling pretty blue and sick today, I'm quite content with my beautiful canine niece. She's adorable. :)
Current song - Summer of '09 - ALL CAPS
Current cup of water - 3
I thought of a third countdown but I can't remember what it is....
Saturday, August 6, 2011
a time for bragging... BEDA Day 6
I'm usually not one to get too excited about materialistic things....okay, maybe I am. But I don't have to have material things to be happy! I swear! I just get overly excited about things that I own sometimes. That's normal, right? Okay, I've had the GIRLIEST day in that regard! TAX-FREE WEEKEND!! Every year, Alabama has a weekend where they take the sales tax off of certain back-to-school items like clothes, electronics, and school supplies. What that means for a college kid is CLOTHES SHOPPING!!! Most of the stores recognize that people will shop more than normal so they also have some great sales. I got some awesome stuff, but with money being tight I really had to make sure that everything was needed. I only did ONE extra purchase and that was: MY ADORABLE SHOES!!!
Don't you just LOVE them?! They were only $20!!! I cannot wait to wear them!
I also got some things I needed like an ironing board and some bras. I honestly don't care who knows that I bought bras because I finally found some that fit me AND are cute!! That never happens to me! I also got them all on sale. I feel like a champ.
I think my biggest pet peeve is that my brother has to have the name brand clothes. I've gotten over that phase and I hope that now that he sees the value of a dollar [he just got a job] he will move past it. We aren't the kind of family that can just afford everything and yet he really just has to have it all...
Alright, I'm going to walk around in my new shoes a little. I can give myself one day of awesome, right???
Current song - We Are the Champions - Queen
Current cup of water - 5
I also got some things I needed like an ironing board and some bras. I honestly don't care who knows that I bought bras because I finally found some that fit me AND are cute!! That never happens to me! I also got them all on sale. I feel like a champ.
I think my biggest pet peeve is that my brother has to have the name brand clothes. I've gotten over that phase and I hope that now that he sees the value of a dollar [he just got a job] he will move past it. We aren't the kind of family that can just afford everything and yet he really just has to have it all...
Alright, I'm going to walk around in my new shoes a little. I can give myself one day of awesome, right???
Current song - We Are the Champions - Queen
Current cup of water - 5
Friday, August 5, 2011
a little sorrow...BEDA Day 5
I want to get real today, BEDA readers. I'm not sure if I've ever talked about my grandfather, but here's a little story for you guys. My grandfather has been through the mill health-wise for the past year. He had a surgery and went to an assisted living facility, and now he's recently had to be moved to a nursing home. I hadn't been able to visit him much when he lived in the assisted living because it was in Montgomery but I've always loved being able to spend time with him. He has a great way of soothing me. He's my dad's dad which is a main reason.
I went to visit him today at the new nursing home place that he's at, it's in Opelika. And seeing so many people that were worse off than him, not knowing who they are, sitting there like vegetables....I almost cried. My Poppy can't be that bad, can he? He's not, he really isn't. Other than forgetting things every once in a while, he's really fine. The thing is he doesn't think he needs any help. He does need help, but he's better off than most of the people in there. He can still walk, talk, and he has people coming in to visit him all the time.
But today reminded me. Aunt Linda won't be able to go over there everyday, and I don't want my grandfather to feel like he has no one left. He might not remember me coming over, but I've decided to go over to visit him more often than I first planned. I wanted to go once a week now that he's closer, but seeing how desolate it seems there, I'd rather be there at least twice a week to make sure that he stays happy and healthy. He doesn't realize how depressing it is, and I don't want it to be subliminal in his mind to sink down like the other residents have. I just want my Poppy back.
But I'm determined to keep him happy. I bought some caffeine free Diet Cokes and some mini Baby Ruths like my aunt always did so that I can take them over to him. I want him to feel like he's home and taken care of. I hope that he enjoys it, even if just for a moment.
Sorry if this was a depressing post, but it's been on my mind all day.
Current song - True Love's Kiss - Enchanted soundtrack
Current cup of water - 5
I went to visit him today at the new nursing home place that he's at, it's in Opelika. And seeing so many people that were worse off than him, not knowing who they are, sitting there like vegetables....I almost cried. My Poppy can't be that bad, can he? He's not, he really isn't. Other than forgetting things every once in a while, he's really fine. The thing is he doesn't think he needs any help. He does need help, but he's better off than most of the people in there. He can still walk, talk, and he has people coming in to visit him all the time.
But today reminded me. Aunt Linda won't be able to go over there everyday, and I don't want my grandfather to feel like he has no one left. He might not remember me coming over, but I've decided to go over to visit him more often than I first planned. I wanted to go once a week now that he's closer, but seeing how desolate it seems there, I'd rather be there at least twice a week to make sure that he stays happy and healthy. He doesn't realize how depressing it is, and I don't want it to be subliminal in his mind to sink down like the other residents have. I just want my Poppy back.
But I'm determined to keep him happy. I bought some caffeine free Diet Cokes and some mini Baby Ruths like my aunt always did so that I can take them over to him. I want him to feel like he's home and taken care of. I hope that he enjoys it, even if just for a moment.
Sorry if this was a depressing post, but it's been on my mind all day.
Current song - True Love's Kiss - Enchanted soundtrack
Current cup of water - 5
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Happy Day 4, BEDA!
It's a good thing I posted my blog early yesterday, because I would have missed it last night if I hadn't! After a day of youtube, theatre work, and sunny disgustingly hot weather I was ready to have some fun. So when my old roomie asked to go out to the bars, how could I refuse? We got all dolled up and decided to head to our favorite hang out. We got a couple of drinks and got our dance on, it was fantastic. We were also with a friend from our college group and an old friend from high school and ended up catching up with tons of people that I haven't seen in a while.
Going out and letting loose every once in a while is probably my favorite medicine for annoyance. It's not like I drink all the time and when I do drink it's never my goal to get 'trashed' or anything. I just think being around people that you love and trust, having fun in any way that makes you happy, and just enjoying life for a little while is the easiest and best way to make yourself feel better and remember how to handle the future with a more positive outlook.
This is going to be a short post since I have a few things to get done today but I hope that everyone is keeping up with VEDA and BEDA!! I know that my blog and youtube subscription boxes are brimming with new entries and I'm sure I won't be able to keep up once school starts. Eek!!!
Current song - Jump - Jump 5 [it's from Smart House]
Current glass of water - 2
Going out and letting loose every once in a while is probably my favorite medicine for annoyance. It's not like I drink all the time and when I do drink it's never my goal to get 'trashed' or anything. I just think being around people that you love and trust, having fun in any way that makes you happy, and just enjoying life for a little while is the easiest and best way to make yourself feel better and remember how to handle the future with a more positive outlook.
This is going to be a short post since I have a few things to get done today but I hope that everyone is keeping up with VEDA and BEDA!! I know that my blog and youtube subscription boxes are brimming with new entries and I'm sure I won't be able to keep up once school starts. Eek!!!
Current song - Jump - Jump 5 [it's from Smart House]
Current glass of water - 2
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
would anyone hate me if...BEDA Day 3
What if I purposefully didn't sign up for Pottermore until October...? I know, I know, BLASPHEMY! But seriously, I have some reasons!! Let's begin:
1) My biggest reason is that I have to stage manage a show from basically right now [I'm already doing work on it] until October 1st. It requires hours of time and tons of concentration. Plus, in two weeks I'll have to start school which is a huge hassle as well. Once the show is done, my schedule will open up so much more for me to explore the depths of Pottermore, but I have this feeling that it's not meant to be for me, even though I know just how awesome it's going to be.
2) Well, really, the first reason is the reason that worries me the most. But honestly, it's only a 1.5 month difference. I think that waiting is going to be hard, especially when right now I could be given the chance to have it, but I just...I don't know. I can't focus on too many things at once and I'm worried that I'll put off things because I could be on Pottermore. I already procrastinate with youtube, reddit, blogspot, and many other things. It'd be a huge new player in the game, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it.
This is something that I really need people's opinions on. I'd really appreciate it. It's 8:18am, the registration could be up at any minute, and I just want to know what I should do. I probably should have asked this last night since that's when the rest of the world is up, but I was literally falling asleep at my computer and couldn't form thoughts. I think I know deep down that I'm going to wait, but I want to know if people would think I'm crazy.
In other news, I put a decent suggestion on a forum from the girls at LeakyCon and there MIGHT be a new collab channel starting up! No promises, but if it does, please let it be before school starts so I can get back in to it ASAP.
Here's to a new day and new adventures waiting for me!
Current song - Only Girl in the World - Rihanna [I have no idea why!]
Current cup of water - 0, I haven't gotten out of bed yet!!!
1) My biggest reason is that I have to stage manage a show from basically right now [I'm already doing work on it] until October 1st. It requires hours of time and tons of concentration. Plus, in two weeks I'll have to start school which is a huge hassle as well. Once the show is done, my schedule will open up so much more for me to explore the depths of Pottermore, but I have this feeling that it's not meant to be for me, even though I know just how awesome it's going to be.
2) Well, really, the first reason is the reason that worries me the most. But honestly, it's only a 1.5 month difference. I think that waiting is going to be hard, especially when right now I could be given the chance to have it, but I just...I don't know. I can't focus on too many things at once and I'm worried that I'll put off things because I could be on Pottermore. I already procrastinate with youtube, reddit, blogspot, and many other things. It'd be a huge new player in the game, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it.
This is something that I really need people's opinions on. I'd really appreciate it. It's 8:18am, the registration could be up at any minute, and I just want to know what I should do. I probably should have asked this last night since that's when the rest of the world is up, but I was literally falling asleep at my computer and couldn't form thoughts. I think I know deep down that I'm going to wait, but I want to know if people would think I'm crazy.
In other news, I put a decent suggestion on a forum from the girls at LeakyCon and there MIGHT be a new collab channel starting up! No promises, but if it does, please let it be before school starts so I can get back in to it ASAP.
Here's to a new day and new adventures waiting for me!
Current song - Only Girl in the World - Rihanna [I have no idea why!]
Current cup of water - 0, I haven't gotten out of bed yet!!!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
good thing I'm doing BEDA...Day 2
Well now I have something to talk about today. Why are people so mean? I try to believe the best in people, I really do. But when someone blatantly disrespects you, tries to apologize by buying your attention, and then sees that it doesn't work and proceeds to be pissy at you? Yeah...that's not okay. And the worst part is, all of this that's been going on has been passive aggressive which is my BIGGEST pet peeve. I'm a fan of communication, dealing with your problems, and moving on. I've had too many secrets, avoiding confrontations, and people holding things against you to last me a lifetime, so I'm extremely annoyed at this point that someone who is supposed to be a friend is suddenly acting like a child. Way to have me lose respect for you, damn.
Phew, moving on.
Today was a surprisingly productive day. I got something mailed back to Florida that I'd forgotten, I did some SM work for my show, I worked on my apron a little, and then I got to meet up with some friends and my sister for a second viewing of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part II. I don't think I'll ever make it through that movie without crying during the resurrection scene. I am terrified of losing all the important people in my life, and I'm so proud and sad for what Harry had to go through. I was a mess. But it is a lovely movie, and afterwards we got to celebrate friendship by going to Zoë's, my favorite Greek place. So now I feel accomplished for the day even though I know I have a lot to work on before school starts. I'm hoping to get a decent amount of school work done before the semester starts so that I can keep ahead for the first 6 weeks of the fall. I need to stay on top of things before the show starts, otherwise I'll crumble into the oblivion.
Here's to a good night, drama and stress-free!!
Current song: Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Bublé
Current glass of water: like 6 or 7...
Phew, moving on.
Today was a surprisingly productive day. I got something mailed back to Florida that I'd forgotten, I did some SM work for my show, I worked on my apron a little, and then I got to meet up with some friends and my sister for a second viewing of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part II. I don't think I'll ever make it through that movie without crying during the resurrection scene. I am terrified of losing all the important people in my life, and I'm so proud and sad for what Harry had to go through. I was a mess. But it is a lovely movie, and afterwards we got to celebrate friendship by going to Zoë's, my favorite Greek place. So now I feel accomplished for the day even though I know I have a lot to work on before school starts. I'm hoping to get a decent amount of school work done before the semester starts so that I can keep ahead for the first 6 weeks of the fall. I need to stay on top of things before the show starts, otherwise I'll crumble into the oblivion.
Here's to a good night, drama and stress-free!!
Current song: Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Bublé
Current glass of water: like 6 or 7...
Monday, August 1, 2011
guess who's back! BEDA Day 1
Ummm how did August get here so fast??! Here I am, surfing the interwebs, and I see my new friend Fiona's tweet saying that she's doing VEDA and I realized that today is the first day of August!!! I'm not ready!! August means responsibility and work! Luckily, I have a couple of weeks to get myself fully prepared and ahead of the game so that I don't fall behind!!
I know that I haven't blogged about the rest of LeakyCon, but I've been quite busy! Good thing I have the rest of the month to get to typing! But I'll recap what happened after LeakyCon. I had about 5 days of work in a row, was post-Leaky-depressed, the roomies were barely there, etc etc. Then my lovely Auburn ladies [Madeleine, Nancy, and Allie] came in to town for two days of AWESOME Disney adventures! I wish that we had all had more time because it was very tiring, but the trip was amazing so I really hope that it can happen again! After they left, I got much more depressed than I thought I'd be. I had no more visitors for the summer and work was hard to find. So my friend Owen reminded me that I was invited to spend some time at the beach with him and his family and I took that opportunity to take an early leave from Disney. I just wasn't feeling it this summer. I needed to get home and get some work done. So I spent 2.5 fabulous days with Owen's family, meeting and loving on his nephew, having some of the freshest seafood I've ever had, and taking some time to relax. I sat around doing nothing, [which never happens for me] I played frisbee with the guys, [which I'm usually too self-conscious to do] and I wore a bikini without crying. I call that a success. Plus, Owen's mom was there to talk to about anything and everything. I trust her and care about her and her family so much that the trip never got awkward. I just don't think I can fully explain how much fun I had.
So now I'm home. I sufficiently surprised my family by coming home on my parents' anniversary and everyone was jumping up and down to see me. My daddy couldn't get a silly grin off of his face the whole night, and I've never felt more happy. I know that I'll kick myself for coming home early at some point, but right now I needed my own bed, some peace and quiet, and some time to prepare myself for the upcoming semester. It's going to be brutal, but I am determined to have a good time. I want to be a good SM for La Bête, make new friends, spend some time out of the theatre, and maybe even get a new job. I'm hoping for the best because I know that I can face what ever challenges life throws me right now.
Also, when I came home, I knew I needed a change. I felt it so much that yesterday when my sister came to help me unpack, I ended up convincing her to rearrange my room with me. I didn't think I would like the layout as much as I do, but I'm thoroughly happy with it. I'm ready for the tax-free holiday this weekend to get a few more school-suitable sets of clothes.
I think I'm going to make myself stop writing now since I know I'll be blogging every single day this month. I don't want to forget or lose track of this because having little goals like this helps you to become more organized and less stressed. That's the plan. Stay tuned, blogspotians, I'll be here all month!
Current song - Imma Be - Black Eyed Peas
Current cup of water - 0 - It's only 8:55am, guys! Don't judge!
I know that I haven't blogged about the rest of LeakyCon, but I've been quite busy! Good thing I have the rest of the month to get to typing! But I'll recap what happened after LeakyCon. I had about 5 days of work in a row, was post-Leaky-depressed, the roomies were barely there, etc etc. Then my lovely Auburn ladies [Madeleine, Nancy, and Allie] came in to town for two days of AWESOME Disney adventures! I wish that we had all had more time because it was very tiring, but the trip was amazing so I really hope that it can happen again! After they left, I got much more depressed than I thought I'd be. I had no more visitors for the summer and work was hard to find. So my friend Owen reminded me that I was invited to spend some time at the beach with him and his family and I took that opportunity to take an early leave from Disney. I just wasn't feeling it this summer. I needed to get home and get some work done. So I spent 2.5 fabulous days with Owen's family, meeting and loving on his nephew, having some of the freshest seafood I've ever had, and taking some time to relax. I sat around doing nothing, [which never happens for me] I played frisbee with the guys, [which I'm usually too self-conscious to do] and I wore a bikini without crying. I call that a success. Plus, Owen's mom was there to talk to about anything and everything. I trust her and care about her and her family so much that the trip never got awkward. I just don't think I can fully explain how much fun I had.
So now I'm home. I sufficiently surprised my family by coming home on my parents' anniversary and everyone was jumping up and down to see me. My daddy couldn't get a silly grin off of his face the whole night, and I've never felt more happy. I know that I'll kick myself for coming home early at some point, but right now I needed my own bed, some peace and quiet, and some time to prepare myself for the upcoming semester. It's going to be brutal, but I am determined to have a good time. I want to be a good SM for La Bête, make new friends, spend some time out of the theatre, and maybe even get a new job. I'm hoping for the best because I know that I can face what ever challenges life throws me right now.
Also, when I came home, I knew I needed a change. I felt it so much that yesterday when my sister came to help me unpack, I ended up convincing her to rearrange my room with me. I didn't think I would like the layout as much as I do, but I'm thoroughly happy with it. I'm ready for the tax-free holiday this weekend to get a few more school-suitable sets of clothes.
I think I'm going to make myself stop writing now since I know I'll be blogging every single day this month. I don't want to forget or lose track of this because having little goals like this helps you to become more organized and less stressed. That's the plan. Stay tuned, blogspotians, I'll be here all month!
Current song - Imma Be - Black Eyed Peas
Current cup of water - 0 - It's only 8:55am, guys! Don't judge!
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