a little sorrow...BEDA Day 5

I want to get real today, BEDA readers. I'm not sure if I've ever talked about my grandfather, but here's a little story for you guys. My grandfather has been through the mill health-wise for the past year. He had a surgery and went to an assisted living facility, and now he's recently had to be moved to a nursing home. I hadn't been able to visit him much when he lived in the assisted living because it was in Montgomery but I've always loved being able to spend time with him. He has a great way of soothing me. He's my dad's dad which is a main reason.

I went to visit him today at the new nursing home place that he's at, it's in Opelika. And seeing so many people that were worse off than him, not knowing who they are, sitting there like vegetables....I almost cried. My Poppy can't be that bad, can he? He's not, he really isn't. Other than forgetting things every once in a while, he's really fine. The thing is he doesn't think he needs any help. He does need help, but he's better off than most of the people in there. He can still walk, talk, and he has people coming in to visit him all the time.

But today reminded me. Aunt Linda won't be able to go over there everyday, and I don't want my grandfather to feel like he has no one left. He might not remember me coming over, but I've decided to go over to visit him more often than I first planned. I wanted to go once a week now that he's closer, but seeing how desolate it seems there, I'd rather be there at least twice a week to make sure that he stays happy and healthy. He doesn't realize how depressing it is, and I don't want it to be subliminal in his mind to sink down like the other residents have. I just want my Poppy back.

But I'm determined to keep him happy. I bought some caffeine free Diet Cokes and some mini Baby Ruths like my aunt always did so that I can take them over to him. I want him to feel like he's home and taken care of. I hope that he enjoys it, even if just for a moment.

Sorry if this was a depressing post, but it's been on my mind all day.

Current song - True Love's Kiss - Enchanted soundtrack
Current cup of water - 5