Okay readers, if you do NOT want to read an angsty, emo, depressed post then stop right now. I have no energy to put this into positive words. Here it goes:
I feel like you're doing this to torture me. You're dangling what I want right in front of my face. Smiling, giggling, and plotting to hurt me. Well you win...it hurts more than you think. You've made it so that I'm longing to get out of everything and leave one of the things I love the most behind, that's how bad it hurts. I've tried so hard to avoid drama and petty arguments and issues...but you keep me in that world. Are you happy? Do you like making me feel worthless, useless, and exhausted. I can't kiss ass anymore. I can't smile at you when I want to cry.
Okay, you're different. I've loved hanging out with you for the longest time. But now...all I hear is how much it's about you. How your problems have to equate to mine. How you feel EXACTLY how I feel. Maybe I'm being a little kid about it, but you don't understand, you haven't been through the same thing, and you aren't like me. As much as we're similar, we're also different. So right now, I just need my space. I love you, but I need to sit back, learn how to deal with my situation, and come back to you when I'm ready. Because right now, I'm just not and I don't want you to get hurt because of other issues in my life.
I guess that's all I had to say to the world today. I really want to get back into a dance studio and choreograph again. There are a few songs I've always wanted to work with and I usually get a burst of creativity before it dies down again. I need my outlet back. Sorry that this was so angsty and boring. I'll stop being a 7 year old with baby problems now.
Current song - Be Be Your Love - Rachel Yamagata
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