I am typing this on my roommate's computer because my internet and my computer has decided to be SUPER slow ever since the crazy tornado storm on Monday night! Grrrr
In other news, this is my Friday! I am now very glad about that, but earlier today I was NOT a happy camper. I've decided to get past that and move on towards this weekend. I took Matt back to his truck in Montgomery and actually had the courage to sing in front of Matt and Madeleine. For those of you who don't know, it's kind of a fear of mine: singing in front of people. I'm getting a little more used to singing for Madeleine, but confidence is a HUGE issue because I'm nowhere close to being as good as her and all I hear around me is perfection. I have a perfectionist complex about dancing, SMing, and now singing. I need to do them well. I want to succeed and excel at all three of those things, along with many others. So for now, singing in front of my best friend scares the hell out of me.
I am heading to bed with the goal of staying asleep until 9:20am and only waking up to get ready for my solo dance lesson, then doing some SM work and some homework so I can enjoy both this weekend and my next week with Matt back in town again. I have so much going through my head that a good night's sleep is the only thing I want to think about anymore. I don't need drama, I want to be myself, independent, and free to do whatever I please. I need to get out of here. But only a few more weeks til I get to escape for 7-10 days and then back here to the old grind. WHAT?! NO KELLY! I need to focus on finishing this semester before I start thinking about this summer or more schooling!!!!
Going to bed. Someone give me something to talk about!!
Current song - Take Me or Leave Me - Rent soundtrack [the song I could sing in front of Madeleine :) ]
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