neediness

i'm not going to lie...it feels pretty good to be wanted. it also feels pretty good to be needed for help every once in a while. but when someone is dependent on you for everything, or needs you to constantly reiterate the same feelings, things get old.

i've had a few friends that do this. saying 'goodbye' and then seeing them still waving at you and waiting for another goodbye is just annoying. having someone ask you to do mundane tasks that take up a lot of your time because they can't do things themselves is selfish. basically what i'm saying is that i've had to take care of myself a lot over the past seven years. i took care of myself in the high school dorms, in college, at disney world, and everywhere else i've been. yes, sometimes i'm too lazy to get the remote when it's closer to someone, but if something is really going to inconvenience a person i try to get things done on my own. i shouldn't have to be the rock, the mom, or the go-to person for everyone. i should be a friend, a daughter, a sister, etc instead.

sorry for that little tangent. i feel like i'm the mommy here right now and i'm only 21 years old. i shouldn't have this many people depending on me so much. i'm still trying to live my life and do things my way and become and healthier and happier me.

Current song - My Baby Watermelon - Ryan Seiler