confessions

I used to be the kind of girl that was up for anything. Well, except for trying certain foods. I'd challenge myself constantly, I'd watch any movie you asked me to. Basically, I was a badass. Nowadays I find myself in my own little fantasy world. Not that I'm complaining, but as many comments as I've had on it lately...I feel the need to confess a little bit about who I am now.

I've turned into a girly girl. I'm not hung up on the latest trends and fashions, but I like to look cute [when I have the energy for it] and I have absolutely no problem with being told that I look nice by people. I like to sing along with boy or girl parts of songs, and the songs I listen to are crazier than most people's tastes. No, I'm not talking about heavy metal or gangsta rap....I'm talking about wizard rock and nerdfighter songs.

I'm also a nerd. Not in the making straight A's way, although I'm doing pretty well in school, but in the way that I'd rather be holed up with my computer than out partying the night away. I'd rather read or watch a movie instead of going bar-hopping and getting wasted. But I also have crazy ambitions [like traveling a LOT, taking road trips, and meeting amazing new people as much as I can]. I'm not a hermit, but there are [many] times that I need to be alone, just to think. I like being with my friends, and I have a TON of best friends. I'm a pretty open person and it's nice to share anything and everything with so many people. This also means that I don't really have much of a filter when it comes to introducing myself and here in the Deep South I get a lot of crazy looks for some of the things I say. This also means that with such an open heart to almost anyone, I also get hurt pretty easily. I'm either full throttle and high speed ahead, or I'm in my own little corner at a dead end. Not depressed....just.....thinking.

I like to be a good person/friend/leader whenever I can, but sometimes I need some attention as well. There are times when I'd jump off of a cliff if it would help someone become a better person, but then there are other times when I want the world to only pay attention to me and nothing else.

I can be a crazy outgoing person with my beliefs, but I still hold on to some traditional views. I like to be an equal partner in relationships usually, but I don't mind if the guy is bringing in more dough than me, or wants to protect me from harm. Sometimes boys are meant to do things that girls aren't, and that's okay with me. But I'm not going to force a guy to only do things with me, or make a guy only have the same interests as me. I like to compromise, and I like natural, easygoing guys that will like me for all the crazy that I am. I, in turn, will roll with the punches and do my best to be the best person I can be for a guy. I'm totally willing to change, to be the perfect girl....as long as he is too. The problem with me and guys is that I usually freak them out and send them running as fast and as far away from me as possible.

Over the past few years, I've become more and more obsessed with Disney. That's never a bad thing, but I've also become obsessed with happily ever afters and I will admit that now it is very hard for me to watch a movie without a happy ending. I've basically turned into a baby. There are the rare exceptions when I will go out on a limb and watch a suspense or action flick, but I'd much rather have something that will show me what a happy life is.

What this blog post comes to is this: I've grown up [and down, in some ways] a lot. I'm still learning who I am, and I know that there will be even bigger changes ahead for me, and I am totally fine with that. I'm a happy person who just wants to love and be loved in return. I'm not that different from other people. I like who I am, and I like the people that I have close to me. I hope you guys enjoy me too.

Current song: Round and Round-Selena Gomez
Current HP reference: Harry with the Resurrection Stone
Current book: Theatre Histories- An Introduction