i don't understand

I have this thing about me. You see, I hate giving up. I hate leaving something not knowing that I did everything in my power to do right with whatever I'm leaving. There are very few places, people, and things that I walk away from without looking back or keeping a relationship with. So I guess one of my pet peeves is when people can just say, "Alright, I'm done." and leave it at that. It's not even that it frustrates me, it hurts. It hurts knowing that people really don't put in their best effort to work on a situation, no matter how bad it can be, or how hard it is to work through.

I've had this happen to me multiple times, but I guess since it's happened very recently I feel like I should talk about it. Especially when people can drop all the history, all the experiences, and all of the feelings without caring, that's when it hurts. I guess the negative part of this trait of mine is that I don't let things go. I just really want to get to the root of the problem and fix it.

Maybe one day someone will want to work with me to fix it too, whatever 'it' is.

And now, I get to build myself again. I have to try to put myself back together after letting myself be hurt and taken advantage of time and time again. Here is one opinion, it's much more eloquent than me. This is my goal for a while:

Lock yourself away, child;
lock yourself away.
Bury deep that heart of yours,
conceal it from the pain.
You never know what lies in store
beyond my warm embrace.
Never let them in these walls.
Keep them at arms length.
Lock yourself away, child;
lock yourself away.
Behind these walls you’re safe, my world.
Forget his smiling face.
Forgetting my wise words
leads you far from me.
You end up causing pain
to those in which you seek.
Lock yourself away, child;
lock yourself away.

Current song - The Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga