School's done. I'm free to do what I want. I completely cleaned out my desk area and did a new puzzle along with hours upon hours of Shaytards watching. My brother is being super sweet and I have no responsibility whatsoever. Sounds great, right?
Wrong. What is wrong with me? I have the classic 'there's nothing to do so let's let my mind wander and freak me out' syndrome, and that is never a good idea. The last thing I need to do is to let my mind wander. I have too many things to think about. Finances, life in general, how I'll survive in Florida, friends, the dooming shadow in front of me that is school, the list goes on. And I don't want to deal with it.
Like Madeleine, I had an amazing day on Sunday. I got to wake up when I wanted, do whatever I desired, and basically have a care-free existence for a day. And now? I can only think about the issues in my head. And the worst part is, some of them I don't even want to share here. No matter how much I try to avoid drama there seems to be a shit ton of it in my life, and I'm tired. I'm utterly exhausted.
On the plus side, I have an apron to finish, packing for Florida, lots of healthy food to make new recipes with, and tons of movies, books, and sudoku puzzles to work on. I have things to distract me. So I'll be distracting myself for a while. I'll be trying to escape in to a world that I can enjoy, because this one is just tearing me down. I just want to enjoy my summer!
Current song: You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift [it was on an episode of the Shaytards....]
You know what would make you less stressed?
ReplyDeletePosting vid to YouTube.
Kthnxbai!
Haha j/k