:)

Heading to Epcot for the first time in 8 months. I have no idea why I haven't been there at all yet this summer!

Current song: California Dorks-Jason Munday/Skyway Flyer

so much better

I'm in Fantasyland. False alarm. But I still think that people take for granted when I'm being nice. urgh.

Current song: So Much Better-Legally Blonde: The Musical

vent

Okay so I guess this is my only outlet right now since all of my friends are busy, wouldn't understand, or don't know me well enough to have my full trust. So why not trust a public blog? Yeah...sounds good to me. Great.

Anyways, today I was going to be nice and pick up a friend's shift. I had feelings for this friend and then I guess I did something wrong because I barely get a hello when I see him. Whatever, I'm a girl and I can be too clingy. So I was going to be nice, and then he took that nice-ness to give my time to someone else that I don't really know. So now I have a shift in Toontown that I didn't volunteer for. Call me crazy, but I'm not too pleased about it and I feel like I have the right to say that. I hate being taken for granted, and it happens all the time because I'm gullible, I'm willing to give in, and I can't say no. I'm sick of it, and I'm sick of myself. And I have no one to tell about this.

Screw boys, I've been done with them for a while. Screw all of it. I've been watching out for myself lately and I'm fine with that. I have hours, I should be happy. But all I want to do now is sleep tomorrow instead of work. I'm sick of being nice and never getting anything close to a thank you.

Sorry if this is pissy, but I really needed to get that off of my chest.

Current song: Fairytale-Sara Bareilles

still a noob

Hey whoever decides to read this,

So I feel like a lot of people decide to take me for granted. When they tell me a story I'm supposed to pay attention and do something about the problem all the time. But when I decide to tell people stories it's very rarely even heard much less paid attention to. I don't know. Lately I've been feeling rather lonely which I explained earlier.

I got a call from my sister last night begging me to come home on Thursday and Friday to be a counselor because ACA might show up and shut everyone down if the ratios aren't right. If Kamp actually closed I would be devastated but at the same time I really don't know if I have the gas or energy to drive down and back from Orlando in four days. *sigh*

So at the moment I just want a friend that will listen to me and understand that I need some me time without any attachments.

Current song: Hey Kristina- ALL CAPS/Luke Conard
Current book: none at the moment :(

currents

I'll be doing this at the end of all posts if I can remember.
Current song: California Gurls- Katy Perry
Current book: Bravo! (my french book)

first post?

Okay so I thought I had written in this blog, but I guess it deletes everything if it hasn't been updated in a while. Cool.

So I don't really know why I decided to write in this blog again, but I kinda felt the urge to. After watching so much 5AG I knew that I wasn't the only one in the world who used this as an outlet and it made me want to write things down again.

After having a really hectic start to my summer, this week has completely relaxed me. I have slacked off a little, but I had a good reason! This week the Byrne family [from Auburn] has been in town, and they've invited me to hang out with them a lot as they enjoy their vacation down here at Disney. I got to eat at Chef Mickey's with them, got to eat at the Polynesian, and enjoyed the parks with them a little too. I've loved every minute here with them because the kids are adorable!

I've been working a lot but next week is going to be really relaxing unless I find a day of work to take. I have three days off and only 27 hours for the week. I guess I'll finally be getting some time to go to Epcot and seeing some of the shows that I've been wanting to see.

I think my biggest need lately is that I really miss having a best friend down here in Florida. I need Brogan around. She would help me have the energy to go to the parks. She would keep me happy and I would do the same for her. We'd be having such a great time and it stinks that I very rarely get to see her. She really was my rock here, and now working here is fun...but it's not the same and I don't feel like I have anyone down here I can really talk to. It's been bugging me lately because I have a lot on my mind and I want to know that I have that one friend who I can run to and talk to about it in person.

I feel like as a person in general I'm way too clingy and demanding of my friends, but at the same time I want to make sure that someone out there still knows that I exist. I'm sure everyone has moments like that, but for me it's constant. I need to have a person to talk to, joke around with, or vent to. It's weird.

Well I'm not really sure what else I wanted to say, but I might keep doing this blog thing....wish me luck!