forgotten

This is probably going to be a really selfish post, just to let everyone know.

So, today's my birthday. Facebook is blowing up with warm wishes, my mom brought me flowers, and people are texting me. And yet...I feel awful. I've spoiled so many friends on their birthdays: taking them to dinner, watching a movie with them, going out with them, you name it. And...no one is really going out of their way for me. My life feels a little overshadowed. I don't care about the Super Bowl today or going out getting drunk with people. I want to feel loved, I don't want to be lonely. And I feel the loneliest I've been in a long time right now. The sucky part about my birthday being so close to Valentine's Day is that I never have someone for either of them. So I'll just say it: it'd be nice to have a guy. To hold me, care for me, and spoil me every once in a while. And that doesn't exist. I'm alone right now. So maybe my birthday will get better, but until then...I'll be here. In my room. Sitting in my bed. Doing homework.

Strawberry Fields Forever - Across the Universe soundtrack