a short quick post

Order of business #1:
I hate losing friends for idiotic reasons. Especially reasons that include boys. The friendship isn't fully over, but I can't talk to this person anymore because I never see them, hear from them, or worry about them. And every time I do see this person, I get made fun of or picked on, because that's just who this person is. Ever since I got home it's just been going downhill and I'm sad to see it go. But I'm at the point that if people don't want to be my friends, then I just have to get over it. There are people that do love me for who I am. It wouldn't be so bad being picked on if I knew that there was still some decent friendship deep down in there. But I don't see it anymore, and losing sight of that just stinks.

#2:
I've gotten into the habit of hiding my body again. Urgh. You'd think that losing 15 pounds wouldn't be so hard to keep off and feel good about. Wrong. I feel like I'm gaining it back which is a HUGE fear of mine considering I'll get eaten alive by my grandmother if she thinks I've gained weight back. So for now, I'm allowed to be a little conscious about it, a little vulnerable, and a little scared. It's okay for that every once in a while.

Okay, so now that I've wasted an entire afternoon doing absolutely nothing of real worth for school, I must study for the next 45 minutes before rehearsal. Urgh.

Current song: Some Imagination [acoustic]-Skyway Flyer
Current HP reference: chilling in the common room
Current book: none....I might take this portion off until a school break. Sad, I know.